05-20-2014, 11:12 AM
xise, thank you so much, my brother! You're right in that these attacks happen partially due to repressed memories. I recognized that one part of them have to do with my fear of people. This is a left-over from my PTSD. I learned from young age that people can be unpredictable and physically abuse you for no seeming reason at all. I also learned that if I look in the eyes of others, they can hit you for that. So I learned to not look into the eyes of others and to fear them. We went through this when I was treated for my PTSD, but not enough as focus was on other, bigger issues. But now it's coming up to the surface, and getting these proportions. Hopefully I can work with this in this new soon to be therapy. Much love, brother. Thank you for your kind thoughts.