04-30-2014, 08:24 PM
Personal 3D-OCD note;
I've been diagnosed and supposedly 'cured' from OCD in 2006 after a full year of therapy bootcamp; doing everything in a group setting (there were 6 groups in total), sessions, eat, sleep, walks etc. 5 days a week, 24 hours a day. We weren't allowed to be alone so core issues would inevitably arise, for those who enjoy avoiding stuff lol. I choose to be there but after six months or so I began my own semi-secret private practice in the back of our shared livingroom, man that was fun, because most of the therapists were also convinced that everybody was capable of making that choice, so that's how we were treated, with the expectation that we were considered capable. Which worked for some, but for the majority it only made us feel worse then we already did. If you don't feel capable there's nothing in the world that can convince you that you're able to choose, so most of us ended up creating stepping into someone who lived up to the expectations, including me. Because we had to leave and survive the 'real world' aka; jobs, unhappy relationships etc. Though I was very convincing, hence the removal of said diagnoses.
At the time I absolutely didn't know it was just another mask, and I also didn't realize my whole life was just a fabrication of percieved normalities, but looking back it most definitely was. That's why everything fell away, eventually. 8 therapy-less years and a lot more studying/experiences/insights later, I finally, truly feel and therefore believe I have a choice. Now I have all the time I need -to do what I love, so my inherently curious nature finally has room to breathe, at times a little too much but hey, at least I'm aware of it now and I don't condemn myself for it.
However, should I have been in a similar therapeutic situation now, the diagnoses wouldn't have been removed because of the DSM-V. Which I consider to be the most ridiculous version of diagnostic manual ever. I firmly believe most of all percieved mental illnesses are due to people having to compromise who they are on a daily basis. Doing stuff you don't like doing, without even realizing you don't like it, because you don't know who you are and you're not able to discern what you do/don't like -is a tad bit exhausting. Lacking sufficient support in direct environment, no place to go, combined with fundamental responsibilities makes it almost impossible to ever figure out who you are and what you truly love doing. If you have kids you can't just take a year off to figure things out. Perhaps a week, to take a breather and then it's back to busyness.
If people would have a place where nothing is ever expected from them, where they can unlearn and transform all those detrimental beliefs, rest, heal, connect with nature and do whatever they -feel- like doing, figuring out what they love doing so they don't have to conform to a job anymore. With proper support, instead of our current therapeutic environment, we wouldn't need any diagnostic manual anymore.
People, I don't know how you write your long posts, this isn't even that long and it took me for-ever. Sheez, I'm tired now. lol, bye.
I've been diagnosed and supposedly 'cured' from OCD in 2006 after a full year of therapy bootcamp; doing everything in a group setting (there were 6 groups in total), sessions, eat, sleep, walks etc. 5 days a week, 24 hours a day. We weren't allowed to be alone so core issues would inevitably arise, for those who enjoy avoiding stuff lol. I choose to be there but after six months or so I began my own semi-secret private practice in the back of our shared livingroom, man that was fun, because most of the therapists were also convinced that everybody was capable of making that choice, so that's how we were treated, with the expectation that we were considered capable. Which worked for some, but for the majority it only made us feel worse then we already did. If you don't feel capable there's nothing in the world that can convince you that you're able to choose, so most of us ended up creating stepping into someone who lived up to the expectations, including me. Because we had to leave and survive the 'real world' aka; jobs, unhappy relationships etc. Though I was very convincing, hence the removal of said diagnoses.
At the time I absolutely didn't know it was just another mask, and I also didn't realize my whole life was just a fabrication of percieved normalities, but looking back it most definitely was. That's why everything fell away, eventually. 8 therapy-less years and a lot more studying/experiences/insights later, I finally, truly feel and therefore believe I have a choice. Now I have all the time I need -to do what I love, so my inherently curious nature finally has room to breathe, at times a little too much but hey, at least I'm aware of it now and I don't condemn myself for it.
However, should I have been in a similar therapeutic situation now, the diagnoses wouldn't have been removed because of the DSM-V. Which I consider to be the most ridiculous version of diagnostic manual ever. I firmly believe most of all percieved mental illnesses are due to people having to compromise who they are on a daily basis. Doing stuff you don't like doing, without even realizing you don't like it, because you don't know who you are and you're not able to discern what you do/don't like -is a tad bit exhausting. Lacking sufficient support in direct environment, no place to go, combined with fundamental responsibilities makes it almost impossible to ever figure out who you are and what you truly love doing. If you have kids you can't just take a year off to figure things out. Perhaps a week, to take a breather and then it's back to busyness.
If people would have a place where nothing is ever expected from them, where they can unlearn and transform all those detrimental beliefs, rest, heal, connect with nature and do whatever they -feel- like doing, figuring out what they love doing so they don't have to conform to a job anymore. With proper support, instead of our current therapeutic environment, we wouldn't need any diagnostic manual anymore.
People, I don't know how you write your long posts, this isn't even that long and it took me for-ever. Sheez, I'm tired now. lol, bye.
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