Aloha

[Steppingfeet]

That's a relieve
and you're right even with the proper translation the material, for me, is still quite difficult to understand. Luckily I like a challenge.

What's interesting is that some people seem to have an in-built capacity to understand the information. Even if, on the surface, the language is difficult, the substance is nevertheless recognized by a certain class of readers.

For instance, when I first discovered the "Law of One", I did not have much background that would have helped me to understand. Somehow, though, I was able to process and integrate the material. That experience is not unique to me, though.

Both my grandparents grew up in tribal communities where they lived in harmony with nature and were very in tune with the metaphysical world.

Tribal communities? I would love to hear more about this.

The dissociation started pior to reading the Law of One, because I feel we are living in a society where money reigns supreme and where we have lost total touch of nature.

Oh, I see. So the Law of One helped you to reconnect. I think that is the direction for all entities, eventually.

And the worst part is I'm also to blame for I've done nothing about it except contribute to further poluting Mother Earth. I'm sad and mostly ashamed about it and that's why I find it harder to keep a gameface. Let's just say I still struggle to get past that and to change that sadness and shame into love.

Yeah, we are all a part of this system, and, through our participation in the system, we all contribute to the polluting of Mother Earth. But I don't think there is any judgment. The Creator, it seems, wanted just this sort of situation whereby It could experience Itself through the free will of its finite "parts", or sub-sub-logoi.

But, love is a more powerful force than guilt.

Did you find your family not being supportive of your views on life at that time? Don't you have an ancestor/family member you admire or can resonate with?

Though they haven't understood my path (I am definitely the weird one in that regard), they see my intentions and are very supportive. My retreat from friends/family/world wasn't due to negativity or resistance from them (though I guess I did have some negative friends in high school), but rather just my own need to go within and discover a new identity taking shape in the midst of the old identity dying. Disassociation from the old, identification with the new, and eventual synthesis.

"Ancestor" isn't really a concept that is part of my mental make-up. In general, that's not an idea that is really emphasized in the States. Definitely lots of family members I admire/respect/love, but, with the exception of maybe one or two cousins, no one that's actively pursuing what I would call spiritual seeking. Which is fine.

With love/light, GLB