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[caycegal]

Dear Melissa,

I remember being/feeling trapped for a long time (years) as I continued to pray and meditate. I think to some extent I was burning up karma. Also, I finally was able to begin visualizing an open window with sun shining through. I think that simple visualization had a profound effect. Soon after that I was able to break my usual pattern and go join what I will call a spiritual support group (for me it was actually a codependents anonymous group, but I think any kind of spiritual support group might have worked.) In that group I made a resolution to share one true thing about myself and my life each week. I stayed with the group (in different locations) for several years. I was profoundly changed. In other words, for me the effort to change my life by lonely prayer and mediation did not work. I had to go out and find like minded people to be with on a regular basis, and this for some reason made all the difference. Most spiritual teachers say that the energy of two or more joined together is profoundly more powerful that the energy of one of us in this earth plane. (Might not be the case with realized spiritual masters such as Jesus or Buddha.)