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[Parsons]

I am really going to 'put myself out there' with what I'm about to say, so please excuse me if this is off the mark. It is still merely my opinion (I can't stress this enough).

I have reread your thread and (I think I have) finally grasped what you are trying to figure out.

I know you are a very weary wander, my sister. I feel that we have walked a similar path in many regards, so I know how you feel. However, I am not nearly as weary as I used to be. I have finally started accepting all catalyst, including the seemingly mundane drudgery of going to work.

Furthermore, I have been viewing the synchronicities you have described as loving support from my higher self. Its as though my higher self hugged me and whispered in my ear "its okay, I am here for you orchestrating what you experience. You are not alone."

These types of synchronicities and 'telepathy' have been steadily increasing for me since my initial awakening. For example, a friend of mine that I have had past telepathic connections with was sitting down to have dinner with me at a restaurant. There was loud music in the background, so as I was picking up the menu, I thought 'man I am really hungry'. My friend immediately replied out loud 'yeah, me too'. Since he wasnt really paying attention, I had to point out I hadn't said anything out loud.

I have found these increasing types of events to be very encouraging. I sort of see it as a litmus test of progress.