01-22-2014, 03:20 PM
(01-22-2014, 02:39 PM)Parsons Wrote: Apologies for further derailing.
My concern is despite all that I've learned and integrated, I sometimes get caught up in a moment of frustration so deeply that I feel that I act an unloving manner for a few moments before I catch myself. Whether or not its 'conscious' is highly debatable. I understand forgiveness, but it feels highly irresponsible to continue to to act in an unloving manner then forgive myself afterwards. The Kevin Smith film Dogma comes to mind, with the church entryway which is blessed to automatically 'forgive your sins' as you enter.
It's the threshold between a consciously and unconsciously unloving act which concerns me. I have no issue forgiving myself for those little moments of weakness if they are truly unconscious.
It simply sounds to me that you have work to do with the unconscious, regarding your emotional response. As an example I posted my work on a tattoo blog and had this fine young fellow tell me my work wasn't good enough and was dull. I felt an angry emotion rise up from inside me but I just watched it let it pass and it went. I did not identify with it and as such it had no real effect on my state of being.
Also I was going to say earlier why worry if you are or get Karmically involved. You are choosing to worry and that worry will affect the reality in which you create. Thus the worry will manifest as things that you would perceive to be Karmic lessons, or indeed you will then become Karmically involved. Choose not worry, choose faith that you will return to what ever density is most appropriate for your growth.
Is Karmically really not a word? or is spell check having me on?