Reverting to the orange ray

[Ankh]

yes, a very good thread Ankh.

back to the original post though, and the relationship between yellow and orange ray, and how one can 'reject societal influences' and revert to orange ray individuality.

my understanding of yellow ray (and hence my relationship to it) has changed somewhat over the years. I originally read it as being captured by its outward expression - ie, being social, interactive, and participating and interacting. And I think, on one level, the expressed activities do demonstrate a relative freedom in this field.

but in Ra's descriptions of yellow ray, they continually reference the fact that it represents the individual in relation to masses of individuals, not just group events like socializing. This 'masses of individuals' is things like the governmental structure, law, social organizations like universities and businesses and the extended family.

"32.3 The yellow ray is a focal and very powerful ray and concerns the entity in relation to, shall we say, groups, societies, or large numbers of mind/body/spirit complexes."

so yellow ray is not just having friends and socializing on weekends : D

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I think, as Wanderers, even for those who do not have conscious knowledge of it, there is a felt sense of 'difference' from an early age, and this outsider syndrome, or a 'stranger in a strange land' lends itself quite easily to these yellow ray impediments.

it is like an estrangement from the wider society. And before it ever comes to the level of interaction and engagement and participation, the disaffection is present attitudinally. Ie, it is a mental attitude. Towards the society as a whole.

so to address this, one has to examine one's attitudes towards Society as a whole. Is this place the dead-end of the world? do we want to be here at all? do we regard the 'mass of humanity' as fellow equals, each following their life programming, or do we consider them as brainwashed idiots who deserve what they get?

I think it is these types of attitudes which are at the heart of any yellow ray issues one might have.

Maybe there are aspects of yellow ray which are intertwined into each other, like petals of one flower? So, if one petal gets damaged, others may be affected as well? What I was thinking of is my own experience of when I went through a traumatic experience of yellow ray situation that had to do with work, I then shut down other aspects which were functioning before. One of these other aspects was for instance friends, which I suddenly did not want to see anymore unless absolutely necessary after this traumatic work situation happened.

It is impossible to mention/write everything and think of all aspects in posts, so one detail perhaps in this recent situation, mentioned earlier, was actually about finding a security in "larger amount of mind/body/spirit complexes", or work situation, and if my yellow ray would be balanced or opened or functioning properly in groups, or larger numbers of mind/body/spirit complexes, I would be stepping into the green ray, but instead due to this earlier trauma, this yellow ray situation made me to feel "undeserved" of it, as this earlier trauma or catalyst is still not yet balanced. So, I reverted to orange ray, once again pondering self worth etc. But thank you for your post! This issue is of greatest interest to me right now. What happens now is that I see more and more situations of this reversion of which I was unaware! In short, this happens over and over and over again, and not just in the situation which I mentioned before, but almost all the time, and I didn't even know it!

As to being Wanderers and feeling "different" - is it a yellow ray or an orange ray issue? Because I bet that the most so called royalties feel different? Or those who are famous? Or perhaps talanted in some way? Is this issue a yellow ray in regards to *only* how their attitude is towards larger numbers of the mind/body/spirit complexes, or is this issue an orange ray as well in regards to the attitude towards its own personal power/view of the self? Maybe it could be a combined issue, wherein these rays are intertwined as well, or the blockage/function of these two rays has to do with each other? Ra did say that the rays between red and violet are not fixed, right? But either way, what I was thinking of is that maybe this is not that much of being a "stranger in a strange land" issue, but more of not developed orange and yellow rays issue? Or sometimes becoming blocked in these rays due to traumatic catalyst of Earth?

Well, there are a whole bunch of questions in this post, and not that many answers perhaps. Thank you for your post!

xise, my brother, thank you!