A call for help.

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Reading the latest answers to Adonai's post, I've caught myself smiling widely. I am very pleased, even thrilled, by the quality of the advice and help which has been shared. It's so beautiful and grand I find myself compelled to write about a catalyst I am personally facing, hoping that perhaps one of you dear friends will be able to see in this tale something I did not and maybe, just maybe, hint me in the right direction.

So here I go, exposing a bit of myself publicly, a rare occurrence! Since over 2 months, I started noticing a pressure on my back, precisely around the left shoulder blade area, roughly where the heart is. This pressure feels like an astoundingly clear physical touch and I found myself reaching for it several times (I actually still do sometimes), finding nothing physical to account for. It occurred for the first time while I was traveling and when I met Adonai face to face, ah! At first I shrugged it off but, when I realized it wasn't going away, I started worrying a bit. To this day, it still happens every day, several times a day. I remember, when I first started experiencing the sensation, feeling a strong intuition that something which did not belong there dwelled in that area of my body. I meditated on it several times, felt the tingly pressure spreading from the left side of my back to my right during such instances. But no matter how much I meditated, I could never pinpoint the exact cause of the problem. After initially trying to remove it and after experiencing states of emotional veiling (emotions have always been part of my guidance system, so not feeling them threw me a couple of times into momentary inner turmoil), I decided that even though I could seemingly not verify its origin or its function, whether it is truly external or internal, I would treat it with love and acceptance. Every time I feel it, I take the opportunity to send it love/light, whatever it is, and extend that light to all around me, seen and unseen. Since I have started that process, I haven't experienced the strange emotional veiling and I find myself more at peace as well.

This catalyst has been of service even if it brought me much angst initially. I am still curious about any insight you guys might have on this topic. I would like to understand more about this phenomenon in order to treat it more, ah, wisely, assuming such thing is possible and/or offered. In the mean time, I will keep sending love and light to it and wait to be guided towards a solution.

Thank you to all who will read this. I appreciate your support, expressed and silent.