A call for help.

[GentleReckoning]

I am just putting this out in the public sphere to make sure I am noticed by those willing to help, entities in the inner planes and those of the confederation.

I am not sure if I can be heard mentally by anything other than what aggresses against me constantly. Every night I am surrounded by shadows with a constant head pain. I am told pure manipulative lies when I try to receive guidance. When I try to heal myself spiritually in meditation my body goes absolutely cold and I can feel pain in my stomach.

I assure you I am mentally sound. I call out to any assistance available. All of creation shall hear the call of this post.

I am tired of going through this.

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So it seems these beings can suppress my calls physically. I noticed an immediate relief posting this here. Very good. Thanks!

Went through a similar thing for 8 or 9 months. They are offering you service because you request service. Simply accept that you have no way of tuning yourself to positive guidance and love the service that you receive. It's that simple and that hard.

You will be frustrated, angry, and you will want to fight. Simply force your body to relax when this happens. You'll notice it gets quite tense. Allow the body to lead the mind, since they are not physically attacking your body (ideally!). As the body relaxes it is easy for the mind to follow.

If you can bring yourself to accept every negative possible outcome, that will form the fulcrum from which you can be free from any kind of negative attack. I couldn't get past being at the bottom of a 4d- pecking order, but I don't think it's something to get worked up about.

You're completely sound; you've simply opened up an un-tuned channel and whenever you have a feeling of guilt/shame/pretty much any negative emotion it has the potential to flip you to tuning into negative stuff. Also if you let them massage your ego you'll find them quickly leading you down in tighter and tighter circles.

There are spiritual masters, guides, angels, walk-ins, sparks from beyond the octave and many more waiting for you to walk outside your door and begin the process of including them in your beautiful experience. They are the human beings you see every day.

My experience was a result of a tulpa being used to create an un-tuned channel, but the experiences you describe are almost exactly the same. (I suspect yours "symptoms" are likely more intense)

Take what you want, and drop the rest. Much love brother.