self-deception (self misunderstanding) in choosing service

[reeay]

Something that I've been thinking about recently:

I've come across folks who study the Ra Material & other philosophies, who are very interested in what the 'STS' do and how they polarize. They seem to believe that knowing how STS operate will help them to be safer. Lots of diagnoses like, 'that's STS' or 'that can be manipulated by STS so we shouldn't do that'. So I am thinking they see the world as a dangerous place and that there are external threats that need to be contained. They also believe that knowing is power, and that the path to polarizing STO is to understand STS bc STS will sabotage. Sure, possible.

However, it is kind of a question mark due to its focus on external shadows rather than integration of split self (i.e. harmony & peace within self) w/ one's internal shadow. This may be an attempt to protect the world from the dangers of STS and thereby offering service as protector of sorts, but it's also projecting personal shadow onto external object. It's intended as service to other and to grow but there is a limit when focus is on external without recognizing how the external mirrors internal.

But point is, deep, honest examination of one's motivation could yield opportunities for reflexively understanding consequence of own actions (whether physically done or within one's mind). Blue raaaay.

P.S. I may be projecting on these folks. lol