Depersonalization Disorder

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Hello everyone... I've been suffering from depersonalization disorder for seven years, since I was 12. From what I've read beyond a purely psychological approach, it means that my mental body is separate from the other bodies (http://www.healpastlives.com/pastlf/karm...epersn.htm - this is a really interesting take on it), and what I need to do is integrate them.

Someone told me that I might not have incarnated properly yet, especially since I first started feeling detached from myself and the world when I was 12, which is when you usually start to get a grip on reality (and childhood is a fuzzy state, I might have always been depersonalized until then and considered it the normal state). I've been to a homeopath and she didn't indentify any problem, just that she sensed that I have a very strong intuition.

But even though depersonalization offered me valuable spiritual insight, it's been hell to go through. I want to experience life in this realm at its fullest, but I mostly feel like a robot going through the motions, without a real sense of self. I wonder what caused it- did I choose it for myself in a past existence, is it a sign of our generation experiencing this shift in consciousness? I think it's a necessary step, but I would like to overcome it- I just don't know what its roots are. Do you have any ideas?

I guess what makes this a mental health disorder is that the symptoms affect you in such a way that you are having extreme distress and/or disability due to depresionalization. E.g., you have a difficult time socializing and connecting/bonding with others, like a family member or boss… so it becomes hard to work or maintain relationships, etc., and that causes physical, social, or emotional distress (well, most likely not emotional distress for a person w/ depersonalization d/o).

Brain imaging scans show that people with this disorder have the ability to inhibit emotional responses, therefore they are more able to regulate their emotions. In a person with a full-scale disorder, their emotional inhibition may lead to social problems such as not being able to assess situations based on their emotions (e.g., unable to understand emotional expressions of others, thus having difficulty responding to others). In a positive sense, people with this tendency have the ability to regulate their emotions so they don't get over-emotional and react emotionally… like fly off the handle and slam doors and screem at people's faces. When you're able to regulate your emotions you could probably be able to respond to situations in a calm way, yet it may be difficult to understand information that is more emotional in nature. There are ways to work with that, and I guess these are the types of things we learn as we progress in this school called 3-D life.

Seems like you're understanding this from a spiritual perspective and I think you're doing a wonderful job! Whatever one is born with, it is indeed a great learning tool and a gift. I guess when things get out of hand (in this crazy crazy world we live in) it could progress into something serious as a 'disorder'.

I experience depersonalization when I have migraine headaches… once when I was grieving… so yeah it happens. Emotions sometimes overload and so cutting off from it becomes a very useful and necessary protective mechanism for many people. But it's very different when one has depersonalization d/o compared to someone w/o depersonalization d/o who experiences depersonalization.

Depersonalization is also unlike dissociation, which is something that happens to a person w/ severe trauma.