2007.01.07 letting go of the self concept

[xise]

I feel empty, but not as one who is ready to be filled. I feel empty because I feel lost. Just a couple moments ago I was elated. But now I can't help but wonder my purpose for being here. When I enter that room, I am happy for a few moments, till the newness wears off. I want to hold Creator's love and light, and feel that. But I feel I do not know how to hold Creator's love and light. And it's not because of anything bad I did. It's just how I feel separate from Creator. I cannot know that oneness in my current state. I sigh because there's much work to be done to hone my energy field to accept Creator as one should accept Creator. Can I be humble enough to kneel before Creator? I believe I can, but I feel it might not accomplish much. While I still wear this meat suit, I cannot truly be free.

You are the one infinite Creator.