The Spiritual Ethics of Suicide

[Diana]

Is there a serious answer to this question? I tried several times in my life to end it. My daughter succeeded in it. The sick feeling of this is disabling and confusing, so really is there a serious answer? From one who knows the true horror of pain in suicide!

My brother, whom I was closest to in my family, took his own life at age 29. The pain, for me, was not that he did it. I see that as his choice and always honored it even though I was traumatized and racked with all kinds of feelings of my own. It's not for me to judge his decision. But I miss him more now than ever. I have seen him once when awake and many times in dreams. But that doesn't change the fact that I miss him being here.

I would guess that you are angry. It's understandable, but with respect and compassion, unexpressed and untransmuted anger may make you ill. And may I also suggest that the anger may be a mask for other feelings.