I have a confession to make.

[spero]

Is it because some lack the faith to accept/believe that some truly are on a magical path causing cynism? Could it be the way that this info is being presented and projected is causing catalyst for those that still need to work on acceptance? Or could it be an underlying feeling of envy that others seem to be "more advanced" therefore "better" which point to a personal catalyst of self acceptance/self esteem or lack thereof?

This quote helped me to realize something today. Im not a confident guy by nature and would say when it comes to forum posting i have a bit of social anxiety. Sometimes i'll agonize over a post so i get it right or dont come off too agressive or too offensive and most often will just delete it to be on the safe. By comparison adonai will lead the entire forum through his personal journey, posting thread after thread of discoveries and insight (opening himself to criticism and praise) and building relationships with member outside the context of forum posts. Its almost funny that of all things that adonai claims to be capable of or have hidden knowledge regarding, i envy his somewhat ordinary ability to social network lol. Maybe this envy seeps through a little in my posts . Rather than interacting on a personal level i might quote Ra a little too often (to add that impersonal buffer) and quash opinions (adonai's included) through the blunt force of my ability to search http://www.lawofone.info lol. It's a learning curve and i've tried to express more of my own opinion more frequently these day. i acknowledge that i still post a lot more than people with serious social anxiety so sorry for all you out there who immediately gave me a face when i wrote that. thanks jeremy for helping me with today's catalyst lol.