I am merging with my previous life.

[Adonai One]

It's the only reason I've returned here now... I thought about leaving because I felt resistance. I now feel peace. 79 years of experience from 1906 to the 80s are now merging back into me.

My mindset is now becoming androgynous. Feminine energies are fusing with my masculine. But with a return of my wisdom and experience, I am automatically attaining the greatest sense of peace I've ever felt. My aura is turning from violet to golden. I smell the perfume I used to wear. I feel pink, flighty... Part of me feels like a woman. I feel so happy like I did before the days I died.

This woman was all that I aspired to be in this life. She was an avid reader and she led. She apparently was into business. She was very feminist, very individualist and a very powerful woman. I am frankly in love with Caroline...

Caroline is now me. I am now Caroline. Things are different yet the same.

I feel as I've cheated... I am gaining back all this stuff that I now don't have to relearn.

I'm an old woman now but I am also a young man.

My testosterone, my body, who I am will remain but so will Caroline. It's as if I never died in my previous life. It's as if I just took a nap.