03-28-2010, 10:37 AM
(03-28-2010, 10:04 AM)ahktu Wrote: At least operating from this perspective I have a foundation I can start building on, and I want to build a positive, peaceful house on this foundation, not one of those haunted hotels.
Bravo Ahktu !!! I can already notice some movement between the first and the second post. You have it down. You know exactly what you need to do. You have a good plan. And most importantly you have taken the MOST important first step.
The hope comes from the foundation of truth. (It is kind of funny that my computer went into hibernation at this point but I am back again). You have correctly identified that brutal honesty with yourself would give you that foundation that would provide you contentment and peace inside. It may not be pretty earlier but we are here for you...
I had a very similar issue myself. I have always been brutally honest with myself and others to the point of losing friends and irritating family. But I wanted to experience the higher dimensions even when it meant negative attention. I would go hunting for ghosts and low life non-physical entities just to get this kick. It is an addiction. And the way you come out of it is the same way you come out of an addiction. First tell yourself the truth that this is not it. Then find something positive instead and stick with it. Eventually the way will show itself. You don't even have to figure out the entire journey at one go. Just figure out the next few steps and when you get there your light will show the next few. And before you know it the situation has changed... So don't think about hitting the home run just take one step at a time and you will find it...