Dizziness

[native]

Hmm..I've gotten dizzy several times during severe psychic attack. I seemed to be going through a deeper initiation. I call it a purge as certain things were being called into balance. One of the main things for me personally was that I had to be consciously identifying with others around me in the moment more. While my thoughts and opinions were always for the purpose of helping, I realized I wasn't being humble enough. So that superiority was a window into inducing weakness, and what was once control was being experienced as a total loss of control. I couldn't make sense of my thoughts and what I was going through, as every thought would be met with its opposite, and so the mind starts to spin as I had no idea what was right or wrong.

Doubt and fear is thrown at you, and you begin to see that the main weapon is an attempt to convince yourself that you're wrong in every way, inferior, and unworthy. With love being the great protector, if you learn to become more certain of yourself and your limits, your faith and will seals all of the above off, now in a more balanced manner. You realize how all of it was basically self-induced. But my point in mentioning all of this is that perhaps there are areas where you're not loving yourself as much as you should. Perhaps there's an over-extension of yourself. We're all equals and deserving of service, and so learning to love yourself is an important part of sharing with others. Because if you don't love yourself (indigo development, self-acceptance) you're not opening up your full being to others. It's as if the self is hiding from everyone.