04-01-2013, 09:06 PM
Aha Questions like those naturally arise anytime the mention of healing comes around.
I am a healing healer, in that I am always working on my own healing, not necessarily in regards to trying to be 'free from disease', but rather to feel whole, healthy and harmonious within myself. So, naturally, I do have my own difficulties.
Much of my plunge in to consciousness and healing begins with my own health, because I was not healthy physically, mentally or emotionally. I had been working at a recycling center when I was diagnosed with scholiosis and 'mechanical back pain', or rather, muscle spasms and tension. A lot of things in my life changed in that time, and I started to explore energy and meditation constantly. My first clue that I might be able to heal my back was when I read a book on the Taoist Water Method, in which the author had healed the same condition.
Though, while I was beginning to work on my physical healing, the others layers of emotions and mind started to become more apparent and I started to see how much of my physical struggles were based in the disconnection I had between my mind and my body. I did manage to improve my body in this time, but I didn't know how to deal with the other layers of my pain.
It wasnt until I had a reiki session done for me that I considered getting in to it and using it. That session relaxed my whole body and cleared all the pain in my back, I was euphoric. A few months later I met a reiki master who was interested in teaching and my own real healing began. For about a month and a half I received attunements and we did release work and healing work nearly every day, and I opened up and freed pain that I had been holding on to for years.
I went through an immense transformation within last year, and any of my family members would attest, I completely rearranged myself, my mind and my connection with my body.
Now, my back is not entirely healed yet, because I still have work to do and balancing to do, just like anybody but it is much, much improved. I do not in anyway profess to be an expert on being in maximum physical health and in most cases the focus of my work is on the mental and emotional levels. I also still have work to do with strengthening the actual physical structures of my back, which I do with qi gong, tai chi and yoga.
However, also significant is that when I was younger, I was diagnosed with permanent hearing damage and hearing loss. I have effectively improved this and even had break through moments of total healing, where my hearing opened up in ways that I have never experienced.
Also, now, I am able to relieve and resolve most tensions or pain I get in my body with meditation.
A big thing for me, though, is my acute empathy. I often literally feel and experience the pains and tensions of others, in a very physical, real way. I work literally constantly throughout the day to process all of the impressions I receive and harmonizing whatever vibration comes in to my field. I have tried many, many different techniques from shielding, to reflecting to grounding to make it easier, but the only thing that is truly effective and resolve the situation is for me to accept it, and do the work to release and heal it.
In a very real way, I am healing myself by healing others. I realize that we are all one self, and that even if I resolve the pain of my own individuated consciousness, there is still balance also needed in the collective consciousness. To me, I cannot and will not ever be 'healed' or whole until all are healed and whole, so I now do everything in my power to support that process.
I am a human, just like all of you, I have gone through ignorance and darkness just like everyone, and am in the same process of self development, discovery and return to wholeness as us all.
I started rereading the Ra Material today and I think Ra pretty much summarized my feelings on this matter.
I am simply trying to teach what I am learning, and learning as I do so.
That being said, this next quote really summarizes how I feel.
I am a healing healer, in that I am always working on my own healing, not necessarily in regards to trying to be 'free from disease', but rather to feel whole, healthy and harmonious within myself. So, naturally, I do have my own difficulties.
Much of my plunge in to consciousness and healing begins with my own health, because I was not healthy physically, mentally or emotionally. I had been working at a recycling center when I was diagnosed with scholiosis and 'mechanical back pain', or rather, muscle spasms and tension. A lot of things in my life changed in that time, and I started to explore energy and meditation constantly. My first clue that I might be able to heal my back was when I read a book on the Taoist Water Method, in which the author had healed the same condition.
Though, while I was beginning to work on my physical healing, the others layers of emotions and mind started to become more apparent and I started to see how much of my physical struggles were based in the disconnection I had between my mind and my body. I did manage to improve my body in this time, but I didn't know how to deal with the other layers of my pain.
It wasnt until I had a reiki session done for me that I considered getting in to it and using it. That session relaxed my whole body and cleared all the pain in my back, I was euphoric. A few months later I met a reiki master who was interested in teaching and my own real healing began. For about a month and a half I received attunements and we did release work and healing work nearly every day, and I opened up and freed pain that I had been holding on to for years.
I went through an immense transformation within last year, and any of my family members would attest, I completely rearranged myself, my mind and my connection with my body.
Now, my back is not entirely healed yet, because I still have work to do and balancing to do, just like anybody but it is much, much improved. I do not in anyway profess to be an expert on being in maximum physical health and in most cases the focus of my work is on the mental and emotional levels. I also still have work to do with strengthening the actual physical structures of my back, which I do with qi gong, tai chi and yoga.
However, also significant is that when I was younger, I was diagnosed with permanent hearing damage and hearing loss. I have effectively improved this and even had break through moments of total healing, where my hearing opened up in ways that I have never experienced.
Also, now, I am able to relieve and resolve most tensions or pain I get in my body with meditation.
A big thing for me, though, is my acute empathy. I often literally feel and experience the pains and tensions of others, in a very physical, real way. I work literally constantly throughout the day to process all of the impressions I receive and harmonizing whatever vibration comes in to my field. I have tried many, many different techniques from shielding, to reflecting to grounding to make it easier, but the only thing that is truly effective and resolve the situation is for me to accept it, and do the work to release and heal it.
In a very real way, I am healing myself by healing others. I realize that we are all one self, and that even if I resolve the pain of my own individuated consciousness, there is still balance also needed in the collective consciousness. To me, I cannot and will not ever be 'healed' or whole until all are healed and whole, so I now do everything in my power to support that process.
I am a human, just like all of you, I have gone through ignorance and darkness just like everyone, and am in the same process of self development, discovery and return to wholeness as us all.
I started rereading the Ra Material today and I think Ra pretty much summarized my feelings on this matter.
Quote:Firstly, you must understand that the distinction between yourself and others is not visible to us. We do not consider that a separation exists between the consciousness-raising efforts of the distortion which you project as a personality and the distortion which you project as an other personality. Thus, to learn is the same as to teach unless you are not teaching what you are learning; in which case you have done you/they little or no good.
I am simply trying to teach what I am learning, and learning as I do so.
That being said, this next quote really summarizes how I feel.
Quote:However, our very being is hopefully a poignant example of both the necessity and the near-hopelessness of attempting to teach.