2001.12.23 No one can walk a totally pure path of light

[AnthroHeart]

Ankh, I too have gotten angry at Creator for allowing me to follow a path that I thought was good, but ended up ruining a lot in my life. It came without warning. Or rather, there was warning, but not the kind that I realized. I was too naive to recognize the signs. Such happens in life when one tries to be spiritual. I was trying way too hard, and had delusions of grandeur. I had the small feeling in me that it was not right, but I listened to the erring voice within me. So I was trying to walk the path of light, but it led me to where I did not want to go. And I suffered a lot because of it. But hey, live and learn, right. In it "God" was tricking me to building hatred toward Lucifer. I knew in the back of my mind that God is love and compassion, but I ignored that and went for the hate. It caused me to hate the one I love.