2001.12.23 No one can walk a totally pure path of light

[Ankh]

To me, to be able to permantly walk in the light means that you have accomplished all that oh had planned.

That was actually a very interesting thought. Ra said a similar thing: "A perfectly balanced entity would become tired rather than visibly aged. The lessons being learned, the entity would depart."

Meaning that maybe it is possible to permanently walk in the light...? Although Ra said that "there is no outward shelter in your illusion from the gusts, flurries, and blizzards of quick and cruel catalyst", in the same answer they say: "However, to the pure, all that is encountered speaks of the love and the light of the One Infinite Creator. The cruelest blow is seen with an ambiance of challenges offered and opportunities to come. Thusly, the great pitch of light is held high above such an one so that all interpretation may be seen to be protected by light."

Hmm... Interesting thoughts...

Sometimes I am obssessed with this purity, seeking a completely pure path of light/love, and I get very, very frustated and even angry at times, when it can not be achieved. I get angry at the Creator for putting me through these situations, and I get angry at this Earth for being as It is etc. So I found the above Q'uote very soothing and comforting.

Isn't the underlying issue perfectionism?
I think that is very common when one is on the path, and understandable, we all want to do our best. And we can be our own worst critics.

You're right and I completely agree with you.

There must be some kind of balance perhaps, between accepting imperfections and short-comings, and yet always striving to walk the purest path...?

I have had ideas of becoming someone who is able to continuously remain in a state of mindfulness, a person that does not experience anger, is unconditionally accepting and who sees the Self in All. I have had trouble dealing with the fact that, I have not become this being and I seem unable to maintain this state of, what I perceive, as balance. This often has led me to feel angry towards myself...wondering how, deep down, I can feel so capable of achieving this state of balance , yet failing to manifest such a state on a consistent basis and often experiencing, what I perceive as, the complete polar opposite: anger and hate towards others and myself "why can't I be this way?"

I can relate to what you are saying here, brother. It's been a big catalyst for me too, to perceive anger towards others, and disharmony within myself when that happens. I've been feeling like I am forced to deal with negativity against my own free will, cause I didn't want to experience negativity. And I've been very angry at the Creator for that.