02-16-2010, 05:16 PM
The lady doing my reading seemed to hit on a lot of key points I've associated with my past life, but some of the details were really different, so at this point I'm still trying to sort out what I absolutely feel was a fact and if there were parts I just sort of made up to fill in the blanks. Of course, both of us could be wrong on some or all parts, too. A lot of my "gut feelings" really contradict each other. On one hand, I'm completely sure this is my first life on earth, but on the other hand I'm also fairly sure I incarnated in ancient Japan. Both seem like absolute fact.
Before I had these "memories" I was for sure I was a male in this previous incarnation, and the reader verified this, but in the memory I was female. And according to the reader, I wasn't a slave but was a public figure who had a change of heart, though in both cases I was raised in a very STS atmosphere. In her version I didn't escape the planet with a benevolent teacher, but set out trying to find ways to fix the problems I saw around me and actually rallied many people to my cause.
One thing that stood out was that she said "The powers that be didn't send you here...I get the feeling you were a revolutionary." This matches up with my remembering that certain authority figures didn't want to let me incarnate on earth, but in my memories it was the STO guys who were leery of allowing me incarnation.
So a lot of key points are the same but with different flavors. I have to say I like her version a lot better. Once she started talking it was like it all made sense, but then to completely believe a person I've never met and ignore the things I've pulled out of my own mind doesn't seem wise. I'm really just trying to find a balance. I'm wondering if I'm remembering several lives jumbled up together and that's why I'm having so much trouble getting the details straight. I talked with Carla about it and even she said I was probably just stringing a bunch of lives together because I don't remember enough of any one to verify it as a lifetime.
Oh well. I guess all will be revealed in time. On with the lovin'...
Before I had these "memories" I was for sure I was a male in this previous incarnation, and the reader verified this, but in the memory I was female. And according to the reader, I wasn't a slave but was a public figure who had a change of heart, though in both cases I was raised in a very STS atmosphere. In her version I didn't escape the planet with a benevolent teacher, but set out trying to find ways to fix the problems I saw around me and actually rallied many people to my cause.
One thing that stood out was that she said "The powers that be didn't send you here...I get the feeling you were a revolutionary." This matches up with my remembering that certain authority figures didn't want to let me incarnate on earth, but in my memories it was the STO guys who were leery of allowing me incarnation.
So a lot of key points are the same but with different flavors. I have to say I like her version a lot better. Once she started talking it was like it all made sense, but then to completely believe a person I've never met and ignore the things I've pulled out of my own mind doesn't seem wise. I'm really just trying to find a balance. I'm wondering if I'm remembering several lives jumbled up together and that's why I'm having so much trouble getting the details straight. I talked with Carla about it and even she said I was probably just stringing a bunch of lives together because I don't remember enough of any one to verify it as a lifetime.
Oh well. I guess all will be revealed in time. On with the lovin'...