Past Lives

[Monica]

I'm going to bump this thread hope nobody minds.

Cool! I'm glad you did!

When I was around 6 or so my dad took me to see a friend of his who was a psychic. She did a past life reading for me where she saw me as a Buddhist monk in the Himilayas. I have had no personal confirmation of this life but it does resonate, and when I enter deep meditative states I often hear buddhist chanting or gongs and see images of the Buddha.

That sounds like a confirmation! Sometimes a psychic will tell us of a past life, and after that we start getting our own glimpses of memory, as a confirmation. The psychic just helped open up our own memories.

In 2008 my dad told me that he had had a past life recollection of a life on Mars in which he and I were freedom fighters or terrorists depending on your view, and that it was us, or more particularly me, who set off the thermonuclear chain reaction that ended life there. Quite a thing to tell your son eh? It does make sense given some of the incarnations I've had here on Earth (you'll see below).

Wow, that's really heavy! What sort of spirituality is your dad into? Is he into the Law of One? Were you raised with all this stuff?

Sorry if these get long but I want to get them all out there in case anyone else can learn from my journey.

Long, with lots of details, is fine!

The first occurred while I was sitting here at my desk. I had been suffering from extreme neck pain and was stretching my neck forward. All of the sudden I felt some energy come over me and the pain in my neck seemed to solidify into a blade. I felt the blade rise up out of my neck and could visualize it rising higher and higher until it stopped and I realized it was a guillotine blade. At this point my neck no longer hurt so I tried to get up before that blade came back down again but to my amazement I felt two very strong hands on my back holding me in place. I looked up and I was no longer at my desk but in what I would guess to be a town square in Paris looking out at a mob of angry peasants. I remember thinking how ugly they were, particularly one guy who I think might be my boss in this life lol. The next thing I remember before the blade came down again was one clear thought in French "Quelle mort horrible."

Wow! That sounds very similar to my memories of being Anne Boleyn, which I posted here previously. Afterwards, I went back to the memory of being beheaded, and quite graphically re-experienced it. Ouch! But I think it helped me to release it and forgive those who did it.

Did you already know French? Or did the French phrase just pop into your mind?

I have forgiven them and myself in this life, this got rid of my neck pain and helped to opened up my blue ray energy center.

Cool! We've all probably had 'failure' lifetimes...failed in our intended mission. But, we undoubtedly learned other things, so in the end they weren't failures.

The next one I remember is an altogether darker life. I began feeling pains in my abdomen sometimes when I would hug my girlfriend. When meditating on that pain it intensified into a stabbing and slashing that mimicked the motions of the Samurai practice of harakiri. I felt intuitively that I was not doing this by choice but as a form of capital punishment for a crime, the crime of abduction, rape and murder. I don't want to go to deep into this one but my current girlfriend was one of the women who I had wronged.

I am not happy with that life but I have made my peace with it. I am extremely grateful that I was able to reconnect with my girlfriend in this life and that we have had the chance to heal some of the wounds from that life (in my case a fear of my own sexuality coupled with a pornography addiction, recipe for a spiral of shame).

My most recent past life recollection was just last night and shed some light on who I was at the fall of Atlantis. My girlfriend bought me a Black Tibetan Quartz as a gift this week and the second I took it out of the bag my heart began to race and a giddy sensation came over me. I was meditating with it last night and I commented in my head about how powerful it felt and a voice responded to me, the crystal itself. The conversation went like this:
"Wow you are a strong crystal!"
"Yes. That is why the Atlanteans used us to make weapons."
At this point I saw a powerful red beam literally wiping out a city. Just scouring it clean.
"You as in Tibetan quartz's?
"Yes."
"Was I involved in this project?"
"Yes, you were the lead developer of this weapon."

Oh wow! Those are some heavy-duty memories!

So there you have it, if any of this is true then I have been a very bad person in previous lives. This is the shadow I carry with me, but I am grateful for it because it allows for me to display an equal measure of compassion for those who have committed great wrongs, because I can see how the flow of time can heal their fury and that eventually they may come back to the path as I have.

Wonderful! We all have shadows...you are not alone! Even those who seem very high spiritual beings in this life, have some shadows in their past.

Thanks for sharing! I'm glad you have found forgiveness of self and others.