12-11-2012, 03:41 AM
(This post was last modified: 12-11-2012, 03:43 AM by GentleReckoning.)
Wow. So many pre-conceived notions. My motivations for my stay in Thailand are to polarize more strongly positively. In addition, I'm working on becoming an avatar for my higher self. That might be a bit off (in time/space) as I'm currently working on blur-ray blockages. Prior to coming here, I had spent significant amounts of time visualizing/manifesting a mate.
I apologize for the moderate amount of summarizing that will necessarily occur here as it has been a goodly amount of time. Luckily, the next bit, I had written and saved in a text file for when I got access to the forum.
Luckily, as Ra says: "There are no mistakes." This really simply allowed me to let go, and do as I please in each moment.
Ok, where was I. After 7:07, my third eye started to calm down a bit thanks to the beer that I had had. A couple minutes later we headed out. The missing member was just going to join us down the road.
The first place we head (7 of us) wass a bar and grill as nobody had eaten and everybody was pretty hungry. To say that I was in high spirits was an understatement. Although I'm not much of a socialite, I've always enjoyed 'maintaining state' in groups of people.
We go in, and situate ourselves. I 'zone in', and as much as I can simply observe. Already, there was a girl that 'fancied' a guy playing pool. Basically, she would flirt with him as much as possible while they played pool. At one point, she even grabbed his junk from behind as he was trying to make a shot. I couldn't stop laughing!
We get our first round pretty quickly. The beer at the bar costs around $4.00. While all this is going on, there is some fairly loud, pop-club music playing out of a couple speakers around the place. Behind me, while I was enjoying my beer, the young servers began to climb up on the bar. They were all wearing ratty tops, and shorts that basically had been ripped down to be generous underwear. So, they get up on the bar, and begin dancing to the music.
Once again, enjoying my mind over matter superiority I more or less ignored them for about 4-5 minutes. However, it was clear that nobody else was! (including the one girl with us) Since they were behind me, it constantly looked like people were looking at me. I eventually gave in, and slid my chair to the side as well so I could enjoy the show.
The girls looked to be young. Being asian, if pressed, I would have guessed them to be mid to late teens. Unfortunately, the two girls closest to me weren't that good at dancing. (I love dancing!) Also, they had braces on as well. The bar was U-shaped, and there were two girls at each edge of the U. I found the dancing to be much improved on the far side. It is fun to say that I ended up looking between one 19 year old's legs to actually watch another scantily clad girl dancing on the far side. Truly a not unpleasant initiation to a new culture's method of dealing with sex and sexuality.
After dancing for some 20 minutes or so, they each came out with trays of shots to sell. Sex sells, and they weren't afraid to use it. After 2 of the girls cozying (physically) up to me for a minute or two, I caved, and tried one. They were young, sexually expressive, and were 'there'. Immediately after, they started PUSHING for me to buy more (the girls apparently get a kickback for drinks that they directly sell). As the shot didn't have much alcohol, although it tasted nice, I didn't have trouble resisting further offers. At this time, one of the people that I was with talked to the girls. We found out that one was 19, and the other a bit older. As the music was loud, and I am slightly hard of hearing, I didn't catch much else.
At this point, finding a soul mate was pretty much out of my mind. I had a feeling that if she was around, that her age would be at least a *little* closer to mine. Since I'm 30 going on 31, 19 was right out. Even if they were older, I would have had a hard time communicating with them as sex as a motivator doesn't really excite the correct passion...
A while later, we pay our bills and leave.
The next place we go to was a first for me. It was a mostly topless 'strip' club. Now, of course, being Thailand, this stripclub (I believe) was once again a place that for a moderate fee, you could enjoy a night with any of the girls on display. After checking out the 'wares' for possibly a minute, I switch to faces. (I've been on the internet, and although beautiful, women's bodies don't hold a candle to the window to the soul) Many of them were quite beautiful, but it was clear to me that that few to none of them really understood the transaction that they were being compensated to complete. I might not go so far as to say that they didn't want to be there (although I'm sure some of them might have felt that way), but that they simply didn't understand what they were doing topless in a strip club unenthusiastically moving back and forth out of sync with music playing. Occasionally, something magical would happen. They would joke with eachother and their faces would momentarily light up, but most of the time they were somewhat 'absent'.
The audience for the most part reminded of people in a casino at the slot machines. Doing simple boring things that benefit the lower chakras and not much else. I definitely got the feeling that it would be a fantastic place to be working on your STS.
Unfortunately as I have not spent time in strip clubs in the US I cannot make direct comparisons. It was and wasn't what I expected.
Eventually, I stopped looking at their eyes as whenever they made eye contact, they quickly looked away. If they were more comfortable dancing for a 'faceless' audience, I wasn't going to stop them.
Since I was here, I figured I would enact a prime directive and begin to (as much as possible) spread light and love to spirits that could probably use a hit. This was a fun exercise as my lower chakra was definitely feeling some excess energy (however, at this point, I was not 'turned on'). I took plentiful energy from my crown, along with the newly available energy from my crotch, and began pushing it out through my heart. This was a workout in some ways, but definitely felt better than trying to 'get off' watching girls choose to distort their sexuality for monetary gain.
10 or 15 minutes after we got there, the girls left the stage (there were probably about 18 of them up there: the term meat market would certainly be apt). A bit later, some groups of four girls came up and danced, then another group etc. These were a bit more entertaining as the girls performing actually had something to do.
Eventually the 'herd' came back up and it was at this point that we headed out for a different view.
I apologize for the moderate amount of summarizing that will necessarily occur here as it has been a goodly amount of time. Luckily, the next bit, I had written and saved in a text file for when I got access to the forum.
Luckily, as Ra says: "There are no mistakes." This really simply allowed me to let go, and do as I please in each moment.
Ok, where was I. After 7:07, my third eye started to calm down a bit thanks to the beer that I had had. A couple minutes later we headed out. The missing member was just going to join us down the road.
The first place we head (7 of us) wass a bar and grill as nobody had eaten and everybody was pretty hungry. To say that I was in high spirits was an understatement. Although I'm not much of a socialite, I've always enjoyed 'maintaining state' in groups of people.
We go in, and situate ourselves. I 'zone in', and as much as I can simply observe. Already, there was a girl that 'fancied' a guy playing pool. Basically, she would flirt with him as much as possible while they played pool. At one point, she even grabbed his junk from behind as he was trying to make a shot. I couldn't stop laughing!
We get our first round pretty quickly. The beer at the bar costs around $4.00. While all this is going on, there is some fairly loud, pop-club music playing out of a couple speakers around the place. Behind me, while I was enjoying my beer, the young servers began to climb up on the bar. They were all wearing ratty tops, and shorts that basically had been ripped down to be generous underwear. So, they get up on the bar, and begin dancing to the music.
Once again, enjoying my mind over matter superiority I more or less ignored them for about 4-5 minutes. However, it was clear that nobody else was! (including the one girl with us) Since they were behind me, it constantly looked like people were looking at me. I eventually gave in, and slid my chair to the side as well so I could enjoy the show.
The girls looked to be young. Being asian, if pressed, I would have guessed them to be mid to late teens. Unfortunately, the two girls closest to me weren't that good at dancing. (I love dancing!) Also, they had braces on as well. The bar was U-shaped, and there were two girls at each edge of the U. I found the dancing to be much improved on the far side. It is fun to say that I ended up looking between one 19 year old's legs to actually watch another scantily clad girl dancing on the far side. Truly a not unpleasant initiation to a new culture's method of dealing with sex and sexuality.
After dancing for some 20 minutes or so, they each came out with trays of shots to sell. Sex sells, and they weren't afraid to use it. After 2 of the girls cozying (physically) up to me for a minute or two, I caved, and tried one. They were young, sexually expressive, and were 'there'. Immediately after, they started PUSHING for me to buy more (the girls apparently get a kickback for drinks that they directly sell). As the shot didn't have much alcohol, although it tasted nice, I didn't have trouble resisting further offers. At this time, one of the people that I was with talked to the girls. We found out that one was 19, and the other a bit older. As the music was loud, and I am slightly hard of hearing, I didn't catch much else.
At this point, finding a soul mate was pretty much out of my mind. I had a feeling that if she was around, that her age would be at least a *little* closer to mine. Since I'm 30 going on 31, 19 was right out. Even if they were older, I would have had a hard time communicating with them as sex as a motivator doesn't really excite the correct passion...
A while later, we pay our bills and leave.
The next place we go to was a first for me. It was a mostly topless 'strip' club. Now, of course, being Thailand, this stripclub (I believe) was once again a place that for a moderate fee, you could enjoy a night with any of the girls on display. After checking out the 'wares' for possibly a minute, I switch to faces. (I've been on the internet, and although beautiful, women's bodies don't hold a candle to the window to the soul) Many of them were quite beautiful, but it was clear to me that that few to none of them really understood the transaction that they were being compensated to complete. I might not go so far as to say that they didn't want to be there (although I'm sure some of them might have felt that way), but that they simply didn't understand what they were doing topless in a strip club unenthusiastically moving back and forth out of sync with music playing. Occasionally, something magical would happen. They would joke with eachother and their faces would momentarily light up, but most of the time they were somewhat 'absent'.
The audience for the most part reminded of people in a casino at the slot machines. Doing simple boring things that benefit the lower chakras and not much else. I definitely got the feeling that it would be a fantastic place to be working on your STS.
Unfortunately as I have not spent time in strip clubs in the US I cannot make direct comparisons. It was and wasn't what I expected.
Eventually, I stopped looking at their eyes as whenever they made eye contact, they quickly looked away. If they were more comfortable dancing for a 'faceless' audience, I wasn't going to stop them.
Since I was here, I figured I would enact a prime directive and begin to (as much as possible) spread light and love to spirits that could probably use a hit. This was a fun exercise as my lower chakra was definitely feeling some excess energy (however, at this point, I was not 'turned on'). I took plentiful energy from my crown, along with the newly available energy from my crotch, and began pushing it out through my heart. This was a workout in some ways, but definitely felt better than trying to 'get off' watching girls choose to distort their sexuality for monetary gain.
10 or 15 minutes after we got there, the girls left the stage (there were probably about 18 of them up there: the term meat market would certainly be apt). A bit later, some groups of four girls came up and danced, then another group etc. These were a bit more entertaining as the girls performing actually had something to do.
Eventually the 'herd' came back up and it was at this point that we headed out for a different view.