"Create your own reality" vs Service to Others

[Plenum]

I know I have free will to choose my own perception of my own experience.

I think you've stated the truth of things in this one statement here.

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also, in my opinion, the whole STO/STS dichotomy is one that people can get entangled by. At the heart of it seems to be a personal question of - "am I doing the right thing", "am I doing enough", "am I good enough". That internal doubt seems to be the heart of the issue, rather than the STO/STS path which it is being expressed by.

just the fact that you are asking the quesiton indicates that one is on the positive path and seeking greater purity.