05-18-2017, 09:11 PM
So I was talking to a close friend about my experiences back in 2014 when I experienced what I considered to be 'Enlightenment' upon opening up my green ray fully with an integrated and forgiven/accepted Shadow Self.
I call that period of time an Enlightenment Journey, because in a way it was a journey more so than a destination.
There's some talk about the 'lightening strike of enlightenment' hitting a person when they move kundalini into the Green Chakra. Back then I experienced this 'strike' as Neo experienced being killed and reborn in the Matrix, I could see things I couldn't see before. It was as if my ego died and nothing was standing between me and the reality I was able to witness. The most prominent thing about this new vision was seeing things hidden in plain sight, and seeing 'incoming Catalyst', as well as seeing through the flesh of a person to their soul.
It was a nice period of time in my life, the greatest part of my life actually. Blissful, Peaceful, Calm, Content, I felt like I was as closely to my Soul self as I could be at that time.
So, anyways I kept up the work of kundalini rising and managed to move it rather unbelievable quickly into the Indigo Ray.
This is where my question begins. My Enlightenment was more than just an experience, the moment kundalini went into my green chakra I began a journey... That journey lasted for several months that all feel like one long happy content blur. Then as I managed kundalini into indigo, something, unexpected happened.
Suddenly things made...Too much sense. All the available information just clicked together, like a bunch of puzzle pieces all coming into their appropriate spots to reveal a larger picture...
I realized at the end of this journey, that none of it mattered, in a strangely spiritual sense, far far deep down, everything was going to happen anyways, everything was going to happen...Regardless of me. I realized that it was futile to pump love into the world hoping it'll change the two things I loved the most, everyone else and the world itself. This realization came at a rather drastic drop in vibration, and once settled it felt like I went from heaven into hell, literally, not figuratively.
Why would an Enlightenment journey lead me to such a realization? That everything is pointless because it's inevitable? That the entire system is an illusion, from heaven to hell to 3D and the whole octave. That it's all deeply a meaningless thing because at some point, detachment then forgetting occurs evolutionarily, naturally, and nothing matters beyond that point, but what's more, even that point is an illusion, a distortion.
I just, I've tried so hard to wrap my head around it, what it could mean, what does it mean... Why did I come to the end of my journey, only to discover that everything I loved, didn't matter?
Can anyone give me some kind of insight here?
I call that period of time an Enlightenment Journey, because in a way it was a journey more so than a destination.
There's some talk about the 'lightening strike of enlightenment' hitting a person when they move kundalini into the Green Chakra. Back then I experienced this 'strike' as Neo experienced being killed and reborn in the Matrix, I could see things I couldn't see before. It was as if my ego died and nothing was standing between me and the reality I was able to witness. The most prominent thing about this new vision was seeing things hidden in plain sight, and seeing 'incoming Catalyst', as well as seeing through the flesh of a person to their soul.
It was a nice period of time in my life, the greatest part of my life actually. Blissful, Peaceful, Calm, Content, I felt like I was as closely to my Soul self as I could be at that time.
So, anyways I kept up the work of kundalini rising and managed to move it rather unbelievable quickly into the Indigo Ray.
This is where my question begins. My Enlightenment was more than just an experience, the moment kundalini went into my green chakra I began a journey... That journey lasted for several months that all feel like one long happy content blur. Then as I managed kundalini into indigo, something, unexpected happened.
Suddenly things made...Too much sense. All the available information just clicked together, like a bunch of puzzle pieces all coming into their appropriate spots to reveal a larger picture...
I realized at the end of this journey, that none of it mattered, in a strangely spiritual sense, far far deep down, everything was going to happen anyways, everything was going to happen...Regardless of me. I realized that it was futile to pump love into the world hoping it'll change the two things I loved the most, everyone else and the world itself. This realization came at a rather drastic drop in vibration, and once settled it felt like I went from heaven into hell, literally, not figuratively.
Why would an Enlightenment journey lead me to such a realization? That everything is pointless because it's inevitable? That the entire system is an illusion, from heaven to hell to 3D and the whole octave. That it's all deeply a meaningless thing because at some point, detachment then forgetting occurs evolutionarily, naturally, and nothing matters beyond that point, but what's more, even that point is an illusion, a distortion.
I just, I've tried so hard to wrap my head around it, what it could mean, what does it mean... Why did I come to the end of my journey, only to discover that everything I loved, didn't matter?
Can anyone give me some kind of insight here?