Love from Thailand

[GentleReckoning]

So, I applied to Teach English in Thailand, and immediately noticed 777 popping up in my life. Before this, I had purchased some crystal that is supposed to help you connect to your soul mate.

On my trip to Thailand, I left that crystal somewhere. (probably wisconsin, usa) Now, I'm in Thailand and have completed my first week of training. Last Friday, our class had planned to go out in Bangkok, relax and enjoy ourselves. The night of, while getting ready to hop in the shower, I heard the patter of drops make a 2-note musical progression; back and forth. Since this was fairly unusual, I relaxed, and listened for what my subconscious might make available to me in this noise.

After straining to 'hear' for around a minute, I hear "Your soul mate is out there.", right after I hear that, the pattern of noise changes, and I 'hear': "Go out and meet her."

This was fairly exciting for me to hear, as previously directing my thoughts toward the idea of a soul mate would typically just cause me to feel deeply alone and tear up. Still the skeptic, I nevertheless decided to keep my eye out while out in the bars of Bangkok.

Anyway, I wash up, and head down to the hotel lobby. Almost everyone arrives, except for one person. Since people are getting impatient, I check my watch: 7:07. I consider this a significant sign, and my hopes rise a little higher.

A note about bars in Bangkok: The girls that work in bars in Bangkok are almost always 'available' for overnight excursions. The going rate is 2,000 baht (roughly $70). If they work for an establishment (bar, strip club, etc) there will usually be a fee paid to the club as well. There are also freelance bars, where girls will simply go on their own to make themselves 'available'. If you are smart, you negotiate exact terms of your transaction before you leave. If it is still early, you can simply bring the girl along with you to different venues typically paying for anything they consume along the way.

Anyway, this was quite shocking for me to find out. If I had not read the Ra material, especially the bit where Ra mentions sexual activity happening before the exchanging of names in 4d, I would have been very hesitant to go out. I've been completely without sexual interactions with females for roughly 7 years, and this would not be my 'ideal' way of breaking a sexual fast.

To be continued... (I'm behind on homework!)

[GentleReckoning]

Holy s***, I can post again. The ip range of Thailand was blocked due to spammers. I'll update this soon!

[Karl]

Cool.

[Phoenix]

This is a strange thing to put in Wanderer stories.

It sounds a little like a paid advertisement.

Anyway, what can I say? These entities are not more or less worthy than any other under the Law of One. To pay for sex may at least stunt green ray activity, I don't know. (31.5).

777 Faith/ Trust. Either in a higher power or opening up to another. Or perhaps 7 is a reference to chakras. Each needing to be in balance.

Good luck. (In everything)

[Cyan]

If you are in Thailand, the proper procedure for a long term romance, far as I am aware of, is to buy a long term mate. In such countries it is the appropriate norm in many situations. Not in all ofcourse but in most. Most countries of such nature have a deep seated female centric culture where the man is simply expected to pony up the dough.

If romance is not your thing specifically, I recommend you simply purchase a companion for the duration of your stay. Explain up front that you want and that you'll pay X amount per month regardless of what she does or does not do in order to pay for what she needs to have a good life by local standards, in exchange she will be your wife/girlfriend for the duration and when you leave receive a stipend from you and such.

No different than in the victorian era going to a poor shoeshine girl and say "you would look much better in a pretty dress with my arms around you in a romantic embrace."

Thailand is, based on my rumor sense of that area, even more money oriented than the worst Western culture shopping nutterbutters but still much much more balanced about it. Kind of like they expect the man to pay but dont have a problem for being purchased as wifes but have some degree of trouble with prostitution. It is kind of a strange culture in that way. Then again, i consider all human mating standards to be super strange so what do i know.

Anyway. I recommend buying a wife for the duration of your stay there if you are not up for romancing someone the conventional way, as opposed to short term flings. If you make sure she understands that you are offering to pay for everything in terms of education /normal living / food due to the difference in financial systems of countries and dont expect a prostitute but rather someone who is nice and female and you enjoy hanging around with, you will find millions of women there who would jump at the opportunity. Mostly because there are millions of SE-Asian women who live by picking food from landfills. The thing with countries like these are that the culture truly is so alien to many in the west that they will not understand if you explain to them(westerners) that buying a wife there is actually not frowned upon the same as it is here. You buy the function of the person, not the content of their heart, you may have a wife but unles you are a good man they will only serve you, not love you. That is the implicit situation in such countries. It is, in a way, similar to old viking societies and bridal monies and such, but in their culture you pay the woman directly for the bridal value and not the family. It is kind of like the middle eastern culture in many ways, expect you pay the person directly, and not the family. It is a very different and sometimes alien culture, at least, in terms of those activities...

It may be hard to say but you'll have a companion as loyal to you as a random B4thite would be if they were "harvested" to a 6th density STO memory complex in exchange for the courtesy of being themselves around said social memory complex.

Good luck with Thailand, I've opted to stay out of that area for the time being, I think the whole concept of mixing money with love scares me

[Karl]

Just do what makes you happy. f*** what people think.

[GentleReckoning]

Wow. So many pre-conceived notions. My motivations for my stay in Thailand are to polarize more strongly positively. In addition, I'm working on becoming an avatar for my higher self. That might be a bit off (in time/space) as I'm currently working on blur-ray blockages. Prior to coming here, I had spent significant amounts of time visualizing/manifesting a mate.

I apologize for the moderate amount of summarizing that will necessarily occur here as it has been a goodly amount of time. Luckily, the next bit, I had written and saved in a text file for when I got access to the forum.

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Luckily, as Ra says: "There are no mistakes." This really simply allowed me to let go, and do as I please in each moment.

Ok, where was I. After 7:07, my third eye started to calm down a bit thanks to the beer that I had had. A couple minutes later we headed out. The missing member was just going to join us down the road.

The first place we head (7 of us) wass a bar and grill as nobody had eaten and everybody was pretty hungry. To say that I was in high spirits was an understatement. Although I'm not much of a socialite, I've always enjoyed 'maintaining state' in groups of people.

We go in, and situate ourselves. I 'zone in', and as much as I can simply observe. Already, there was a girl that 'fancied' a guy playing pool. Basically, she would flirt with him as much as possible while they played pool. At one point, she even grabbed his junk from behind as he was trying to make a shot. I couldn't stop laughing!

We get our first round pretty quickly. The beer at the bar costs around $4.00. While all this is going on, there is some fairly loud, pop-club music playing out of a couple speakers around the place. Behind me, while I was enjoying my beer, the young servers began to climb up on the bar. They were all wearing ratty tops, and shorts that basically had been ripped down to be generous underwear. So, they get up on the bar, and begin dancing to the music.

Once again, enjoying my mind over matter superiority I more or less ignored them for about 4-5 minutes. However, it was clear that nobody else was! (including the one girl with us) Since they were behind me, it constantly looked like people were looking at me. I eventually gave in, and slid my chair to the side as well so I could enjoy the show.

The girls looked to be young. Being asian, if pressed, I would have guessed them to be mid to late teens. Unfortunately, the two girls closest to me weren't that good at dancing. (I love dancing!) Also, they had braces on as well. The bar was U-shaped, and there were two girls at each edge of the U. I found the dancing to be much improved on the far side. It is fun to say that I ended up looking between one 19 year old's legs to actually watch another scantily clad girl dancing on the far side. Truly a not unpleasant initiation to a new culture's method of dealing with sex and sexuality.

After dancing for some 20 minutes or so, they each came out with trays of shots to sell. Sex sells, and they weren't afraid to use it. After 2 of the girls cozying (physically) up to me for a minute or two, I caved, and tried one. They were young, sexually expressive, and were 'there'. Immediately after, they started PUSHING for me to buy more (the girls apparently get a kickback for drinks that they directly sell). As the shot didn't have much alcohol, although it tasted nice, I didn't have trouble resisting further offers. At this time, one of the people that I was with talked to the girls. We found out that one was 19, and the other a bit older. As the music was loud, and I am slightly hard of hearing, I didn't catch much else.

At this point, finding a soul mate was pretty much out of my mind. I had a feeling that if she was around, that her age would be at least a *little* closer to mine. Since I'm 30 going on 31, 19 was right out. Even if they were older, I would have had a hard time communicating with them as sex as a motivator doesn't really excite the correct passion...

A while later, we pay our bills and leave.

The next place we go to was a first for me. It was a mostly topless 'strip' club. Now, of course, being Thailand, this stripclub (I believe) was once again a place that for a moderate fee, you could enjoy a night with any of the girls on display. After checking out the 'wares' for possibly a minute, I switch to faces. (I've been on the internet, and although beautiful, women's bodies don't hold a candle to the window to the soul) Many of them were quite beautiful, but it was clear to me that that few to none of them really understood the transaction that they were being compensated to complete. I might not go so far as to say that they didn't want to be there (although I'm sure some of them might have felt that way), but that they simply didn't understand what they were doing topless in a strip club unenthusiastically moving back and forth out of sync with music playing. Occasionally, something magical would happen. They would joke with eachother and their faces would momentarily light up, but most of the time they were somewhat 'absent'.

The audience for the most part reminded of people in a casino at the slot machines. Doing simple boring things that benefit the lower chakras and not much else. I definitely got the feeling that it would be a fantastic place to be working on your STS.

Unfortunately as I have not spent time in strip clubs in the US I cannot make direct comparisons. It was and wasn't what I expected.

Eventually, I stopped looking at their eyes as whenever they made eye contact, they quickly looked away. If they were more comfortable dancing for a 'faceless' audience, I wasn't going to stop them.

Since I was here, I figured I would enact a prime directive and begin to (as much as possible) spread light and love to spirits that could probably use a hit. This was a fun exercise as my lower chakra was definitely feeling some excess energy (however, at this point, I was not 'turned on'). I took plentiful energy from my crown, along with the newly available energy from my crotch, and began pushing it out through my heart. This was a workout in some ways, but definitely felt better than trying to 'get off' watching girls choose to distort their sexuality for monetary gain.

10 or 15 minutes after we got there, the girls left the stage (there were probably about 18 of them up there: the term meat market would certainly be apt). A bit later, some groups of four girls came up and danced, then another group etc. These were a bit more entertaining as the girls performing actually had something to do.

Eventually the 'herd' came back up and it was at this point that we headed out for a different view.

[GentleReckoning]

We moved on to a bar called the beer garden. This place was recommended as being a bit nicer for picking up girls as here they were 'freelancers' and as such someone interested in them only had to play the girl, and not the bar. We got a seat in the back and relaxed, smoking (inside!) and drinking. The atmosphere was lively and fairly nice. Much less pressure from the local girls as well so it allowed everyone to relax a bit. It was getting to be around 11:00 or so and I was getting fairly tired (jet lag was still dogging me), so I opted for a vodka-redbull. Unfortunately, I didn't realize that energy drinks in Thailand universally have Ephedrin in them. So I ended up getting a bit more than I bargained for.

After this we went to the down under bar. As our 'tour-guide' was Australian it was a fairly logical place to end up. This bar was fairly small and comfy. Although there was no sex for sale here, it was surrounded by 2-3 places selling blow-jobs. Apparently an ideal location.

After the down under bar we ended up heading to one more gogo bar. (the name for strip clubs around here) The group headed to this new place with the intent of seeing a 'ping-pong' show. Same game, different plane. Once again I, being intellectually bored by the display, began again the practice of radiating love out of my heart. While doing this, I got saddled with one of the girls on my lap. I was steadfastly unaroused, despite being prodded to enjoy a portion of the offerings. I've learned that I may be too polite for Thailand.

After it became clear that I had absolutely no interest in sex for money, she was encouraged to leave by one of the 'mamas' (older Thai ladies dressed normally, possibly management) working at the club. This 'mama' then took an interest in my lap, and as I was almost completely sure that she had no designs on my wallet I relaxed and let her bounce around on my lap for a little bit-much to my companions delight! She came and went, and eventually became bored as I would not show any initiative regarding her as the night went on.

At this point it was getting fairly late, probably 1-ish, and a couple members of our troupe had found companions. Others were simply tired. One member of our party wasn't ready to call it a night though. As everyone else peeled off to head to bed, we went back to the beer garden one last time. At this point, I was fairly tired despite the caffeine and ephedrin coursing through my system. I simply tagged along. Coming back to the beer garden this late in the evening was a little depressing. All of the young girls had been picked up, and there were only older/unattractive girls left. We ended up sitting a couple seats away from one pair of girls. I had glanced at one of them, but didn't get a good chance to look at their faces. After we had our beers, a couple of girls gravitated to the seats on my right. As they were by and large unattractive, I offered them no recognition at all. They eventually just chatted with each other and didn't really push themselves at us.

After our second beer, my companion asked me if I wanted to talk to the girls to our left. I hadn't gotten a good look at either of them, but they looked like the best prospects left in the establishment. He introduced himself and struck up a conversation completely independent of me. After a couple minutes, he deftly handed the more attractive one off to me.

This worked out well for me as I would have never independently approached anyone. I started talking to her. She spoke enough English that we could communicate fairly well. It never occurred to me to ask her her name. I asked her about spirituality and herself. It was just very easy to talk to her. She never made a pass at me, but she managed to be a good listener. I would have been content to simply talk, but unfortunately it was 2 o'clock quite quickly and the bar was closed.

Completely flustered as to how to maintain any contact with her, I simply offered her 1000 baht (30 dollars, the going rate is 2,000 or 60 dollars) to come back to my hotel with me. The cab ride home was quite enjoyable as she allowed herself to be a bit more aggressive with my person, and we giggled and flirted for the 20 minutes in the backseat of the cab back to the hotel.

We get back to my room, and we simply sit down on the bed and continue talking. Eventually, she asks what we are going to do, and I immediately think to myself 'time to do this sex thing'. The whole situation worked out well. She was quite a bit more experienced than I was, but the whole exchange felt very physical(?). Despite all our efforts, my muscles gave out before my sperm did, and we had to call it a night.

For the first time in my life, I slept next to a beautiful woman and it was fantastic. Only I didn't sleep. As it turns out, the combination of ephedrin and alcohol worked to keep me awake the entire night. So, I ended up cuddled next to this girl completely awake for the next 6 hours. As I had had quite a bit to drink I did make several breaks to drink more water and pee. Cleaning out my system. At one point, I came back to awareness realizing that I had been chanting silently "I am perfect; all is perfect". After waking up, I went to the bathroom again. Upon closing my eyes, I became aware of incredibly intricate fractal patterns that were slowly morphing and changing. Very cool.

At 8 o'clock I had given up on getting any sleep. This was about the time that she had woken up. We talked for a little bit more in bed. We finally got eachother's names and with a big parting hug went on our way. I gave her 1000 baht, but didn't have money on me for a cab as well. No class!

I was now jet-lagged, and completely lacking of sleep. However, I had had a very interesting experience and now had a new mantra that I could practice while walking around the middle of bangkok. (previously I had been using 'I love myself, I love everyone')

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Conveniently for this story, I am still receiving very strong signs form my higher self that this same girl is to be used for strong catalyst during my time in Thailand.

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This is a strange thing to put in Wanderer stories.

It sounds a little like a paid advertisement.

Anyway, what can I say? These entities are not more or less worthy than any other under the Law of One. To pay for sex may at least stunt green ray activity, I don't know. (31.5).

777 Faith/ Trust. Either in a higher power or opening up to another. Or perhaps 7 is a reference to chakras. Each needing to be in balance.

Good luck. (In everything)

If this sounds like a paid advertisement, look in a mirror for the source.

Suspend judgement. Remember that all is perfect. The catalyst that one may receive working in any sex field is substantial. Whether one grows from said catalyst or simply hardens the heart is entirely subjective.

Also, there are only two decisions to be made from moment to moment. Love or fear. I've done a good job choosing love, but the catalyst for me in Thailand has been substantial, and I have once or twice chosen fear.

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Good luck with Thailand, I've opted to stay out of that area for the time being, I think the whole concept of mixing money with love scares me

Agreed, it is a very different culture. I have many distortions in regards to the opposite sex. I feel that I am being forced to confront many of them in fairly rapid succession while over here. Also, the stress of being 'homeless' over here has pushed me to lean much harder on my spiritual guides. This has had many significant positive benefits for me.

Remember as well, that there are only 2-3 major areas that have 'rampant' prostitution. I had initially moved out of Bangkok to a more rural area after completing my course, but the massive amount of encouragement that I got to move back to Bangkok (and the associated catalyst it offers) was ultimately overwhelming.

It may be hard to say but you'll have a companion as loyal to you as a random B4thite would be if they were "harvested" to a 6th density STO memory complex in exchange for the courtesy of being themselves around said social memory complex.

Explain again? As it turns out, I'm becoming more and more sure that I've met several people here that I will have the pleasure of knowing as a social memory complex. Details as they fit into the story.

[Cyan]

You'll get as many fans as Ra would if he walked around the homecoming 2012, if you open up spiritually in a community deprived of "light" (energy/money/ability to form coherant social structures and power structures)

[Bring4th_Austin]

GentleReckoning, thank you for sharing so openly and honestly, and in such great detail. I am a bit curious though...I am not sure I am able to connect the dots here. What is the reason for sharing this story in your Wanderer's Story thread? I may have missed some spiritual undertones you are perhaps trying to convey. I admit that I'm left scratching my head wondering what this might have to do with your spiritual path! Maybe you could clear things up a bit?

[Karl]

I theorize that GentleReckoning is conveying that he's non-judgementally following his "inner-voice" and trusting and loving the universe.

[GentleReckoning]

Succinctly put Karl. Thank you. Also as a story for any that are afraid to 'let go' and live NOW wherever that might take them.

[reeay]

Ah... perhaps it was not apparent because you gave us a detailed account of the evening without commentary on the connection between the activities and your spiritual path?

[Lycen]

Thank you for sharing of thy story GentleReckoning!

In my thoughts though, you're story feels unfinished. Or this thread could have a better forum for it, when looked at by the guideline for this one.

The sole purpose of this forum (Wanderer Stories) is to provide a place where you can create a single post: your story of encountering the Law of One material and/or your story of awakening to the reality of spiritual evolution in general.

Thus is said, to be the purpose of this forum.

I apologies if I sound harsh/full of it, it is not my intent. Right now it is to untangle what I perceive as unneccesary confusion.

I was and am still exited to hear how you're spiritual journey began. When/if ever you are ready

[Plenum]

thanks Lycen.

you're next in line for mod

[GentleReckoning]

Yawn, I'm a wayshower. Time to start my own business in Thailand.

[GentleReckoning]

Sorry for the information gap of about 1 month

So yesterday I was pretty bummed out. A great friendship was nipped pretty conclusively in the bud. My only other Thai friend was unavailable as well. This really made it tough to be positive.

Well, I got the message that it would be a good idea to meditate in the park. Conveniently, I'm staying somewhere very near one of the few parks in Bangkok. As I was walking in the park, some of the lights went off around me. I liked the idea of chilling out in the relative privacy of the dark, so I found the closest bench and sat down.

After a while I noticed a streetlight down the road. I found that as I gazed at it, it's penumbra would change. Each time I would look away, it would revert to it's regular pattern. When I would look back at it it would re-organize into more coherent shape. I realized that by looking at the light, I was literally changing it. After I realized this, whenever I looked away and back, it would put on the most spectacular display for me. It is tough to describe with words, but very neat to see.

On my way back, I gave a beggar all the money I have left on me in Thailand (the account that I was drawing money from had been frozen) and as I was walking along, 3 lights flicked off above me in recognition of my generosity. It was fun seeing all of the locals glancing up trying to figure out wtf was going on.

So, we create our realities. Reality is much more malleable than it has been in the past. (or I'm just getting better at modifying it!)

[GentleReckoning]

Next up:

Miracles!

[GentleReckoning]

So, it's quite likely that I'm a 6d wanderer here to 'translate' concepts of the LOO into a more palatable format for assimilation by mainstream culture. It's likely that I'm from the Ra social memory complex. I haven't had any experiences that validate this assumption by me, nor am I attached to it. It is just an observation.

I'll be visiting my friend in South Korea for a couple weeks and writing my book there. After that I'll be moving in with my cousin who is well versed in marketing to get my book out into the 'wild' as it were.

After it is released, I plan on using the funds to begin releasing it in many other languages while I learn to exhibit masculine traits that are very attractive to the feminine. Then I will travel back to Thailand and begin teaching the men of southeast asia how to be attractive to the women of their home countries.

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I'm hoping that I continue to incarnate on the earth as it moves to 4d and 5d as it would be 'fun' to re-experience the process of learning and growth with the people of Earth.

[zenmaster]

I'm hoping that I continue to incarnate on the earth as it moves to 4d and 5d as it would be 'fun' to re-experience the process of learning and growth with the people of Earth.

since your current memory of that experience is veiled, how would you know if that would be desirable? Also what would a 6D wanderer contribute to 4D or 5D learning?

Ra said 4D society needs to spend time only with its own native entities. Do you disagree?

[Parsons]

Yeah! What zm said.

[reeay]

Humility, respect for women/others, and maturity are highly desirable traits in a man for a woman.

[Karl]

Women also like ass-holes that use them and tell them what to do fairly often.

Don't kill the messenger.

[reeay]

That's pretty sad isn't it...

[reeay]

Here is my offering of honesty: I am angered and disheartened by the way women are being objectified and talked about as commodity for the pleasure of men. 'Doing it,' 'paying for it,' being attracted to women who 'look good naked.' I am kind of tired of watching this go on even when the opinions are within the guidelines of this forum. I see the subtle and implicit messages of people's distortions.

I have no hard feelings for anybody person. Just sending you all love and light and hoping you would look at your distortions about women and relationships with honesty.

[GentleReckoning]

I'm hoping that I continue to incarnate on the earth as it moves to 4d and 5d as it would be 'fun' to re-experience the process of learning and growth with the people of Earth.

since your current memory of that experience is veiled, how would you know if that would be desirable? Also what would a 6D wanderer contribute to 4D or 5D learning?

Ra said 4D society needs to spend time only with its own native entities. Do you disagree?

My will is not always synchronous with thy will. Also, after more thought I am not sure what smc I mght be from. It is ultimately a fairly superfluous thing to contemplate. My preferences have been stated as I have found that many people enjoy hearing the inconsequential thoughts of others. However I largely agree with you afa densities go.

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Here is my offering of honesty: I am angered and disheartened by the way women are being objectified and talked about as commodity for the pleasure of men. 'Doing it,' 'paying for it,' being attracted to women who 'look good naked.' I am kind of tired of watching this go on even when the opinions are within the guidelines of this forum. I see the subtle and implicit messages of people's distortions.

I have no hard feelings for anybody person. Just sending you all love and light and hoping you would look at your distortions about women and relationships with honesty.

Distortions abound on both sides. At the same time great amounts of desire and pleasure (from both parties) can be had within these distortions. I will endevour to teach methods of expressing masculinity as close to the genetic program offered by our sub-logos as I am able.

[GentleReckoning]

Yawn. What a boring thread.

Anyway, I spent the last 4 months releasing every desire I've ever had. It was fun.

Now I'm back. And I may be schizophrenic. Which would be nifty.

Time to find something that needs doing.

[reeay]

GR get opinion from medical doctor to rule out any neurological condition and other medically related conditions. Sometimes the symptoms are similar.

[Hototo]

Private practices are willing to entertain theories you may have about your nature as an individual. If you pay sufficiently.

[reeay]

If it's a tumor (for example) it would come up in a brain scan... can't fake that.