08-05-2021, 04:47 PM
Hi all,
I want to introduce myself, and also ask a few questions. Hope you will help me understand a few things maby
Intro:
I always was a psy-fi nerd, and watched a lot of movies about space "Star wars etc". Before my teens i was a nature lover, raised in the country, had a deep connection to the nature around me, and i remember my childhood as a wonderland in the nature around me. Although, with a father figure that was quite dark. (stressed by money and posession).
So after my mom cheated on my father, they got divorced, and i wanted to get away from my father, so i moved to the nearest city as 12 years old. Got corrupted, my-self, after losing my best friend, who died when i was 16 years old. I never was taught about god from my parents, and it seemed they didn't belive in god. I spun into a deathdrive/craze for about 7 years. It made me totally hollow inside, did everything your not supposed to. Then i meet my wife, and had 2 wonderful children, and that startede my transformation, into a better person.
But my past made we want to prove to my father i was worth his time, so i became a entreprenour and today i have 2 businesses, a webagency and a poster/canvas webshop.
The horrible truth is that i ended up exactly as my father. And i recognized this 2 years ago. I was stressede, to make enough money to secure my childeren in this horrible world (Was my thinking then).
2-3 years ago i read the "Book of Ra" after i saw a episode on "GAIA".. and forgot all about it, working 2 jobs, beeing a father and a hustband.
And about 3 months ago i was having a "DOWN period".. No matter how hard i worked, my life didn't get any better, so i was litterally in the verge to breakdown. So i found my way back to Book of Ra, and well.. in the last 5 weeks, i've awakened. BOOM!
And it didn't happen just like that, it happende for a reason. I forgave myself and my father in a meditation. (Healing meditation). Realizing why the last 100 times didn't do the trick. I was all about feeling the emotions, not just saying the words. Now 5 weeks and a thousand tears later, i see the big picture. And actually i hopped on my bike, and went to my fathers house, and called him out in the court yard, and hugged him. Althoug this old man, i was so afraid for as a child, hadn't changede much. I HAVE, and i wanted him to know that i forgive him, and love him. For he was also a good father in some cases.
And just seeing his eyes made i all worth it. (Just crying again). I must have a lot bottlede up, since ive tried not to cry for like a couple of decades.
I always been a rightious guy, standing up for whats not right. (I been labeled a conspirator on facebook a couple of times, and mocked by friends and family the last couple of weeks).
Sharing the horrible truths ive learned piecing the whole thing together.
But i understand "mostly" what must happen, and now to my questions:
I think my life lesson must be to "love all, forgive all". Also evil, since i lived "7 years" of evil me. And that made me realise, that we were all childeren once who needed love and compassion, and we did the best we could. And that made it alot easier to forgive myself and all the people i considered my enemies.
So far so good...but since i awakende up so late (I have one friend who woke up 10 years ago - who i called and apoligized to yesterday) it can't be a coincidence, we are have the same awakening, and reasoning, and align perfectly in our belifs, and thats such a reliefe... but up until days ago i was prepping, until we got a channeled message on "telegram" from Ra, that we should stand down, this was not our fight.
Watching the video, with the channeled message for starseeds, i cried and cried, it was so beautiful.
1. Could i be one? And if so, how do i know how best to help?
2. And can i trust the Qanon, to be the infinite creators army?i
I Great you in the love light!
/Daniel
I want to introduce myself, and also ask a few questions. Hope you will help me understand a few things maby
Intro:
I always was a psy-fi nerd, and watched a lot of movies about space "Star wars etc". Before my teens i was a nature lover, raised in the country, had a deep connection to the nature around me, and i remember my childhood as a wonderland in the nature around me. Although, with a father figure that was quite dark. (stressed by money and posession).
So after my mom cheated on my father, they got divorced, and i wanted to get away from my father, so i moved to the nearest city as 12 years old. Got corrupted, my-self, after losing my best friend, who died when i was 16 years old. I never was taught about god from my parents, and it seemed they didn't belive in god. I spun into a deathdrive/craze for about 7 years. It made me totally hollow inside, did everything your not supposed to. Then i meet my wife, and had 2 wonderful children, and that startede my transformation, into a better person.
But my past made we want to prove to my father i was worth his time, so i became a entreprenour and today i have 2 businesses, a webagency and a poster/canvas webshop.
The horrible truth is that i ended up exactly as my father. And i recognized this 2 years ago. I was stressede, to make enough money to secure my childeren in this horrible world (Was my thinking then).
2-3 years ago i read the "Book of Ra" after i saw a episode on "GAIA".. and forgot all about it, working 2 jobs, beeing a father and a hustband.
And about 3 months ago i was having a "DOWN period".. No matter how hard i worked, my life didn't get any better, so i was litterally in the verge to breakdown. So i found my way back to Book of Ra, and well.. in the last 5 weeks, i've awakened. BOOM!
And it didn't happen just like that, it happende for a reason. I forgave myself and my father in a meditation. (Healing meditation). Realizing why the last 100 times didn't do the trick. I was all about feeling the emotions, not just saying the words. Now 5 weeks and a thousand tears later, i see the big picture. And actually i hopped on my bike, and went to my fathers house, and called him out in the court yard, and hugged him. Althoug this old man, i was so afraid for as a child, hadn't changede much. I HAVE, and i wanted him to know that i forgive him, and love him. For he was also a good father in some cases.
And just seeing his eyes made i all worth it. (Just crying again). I must have a lot bottlede up, since ive tried not to cry for like a couple of decades.
I always been a rightious guy, standing up for whats not right. (I been labeled a conspirator on facebook a couple of times, and mocked by friends and family the last couple of weeks).
Sharing the horrible truths ive learned piecing the whole thing together.
But i understand "mostly" what must happen, and now to my questions:
I think my life lesson must be to "love all, forgive all". Also evil, since i lived "7 years" of evil me. And that made me realise, that we were all childeren once who needed love and compassion, and we did the best we could. And that made it alot easier to forgive myself and all the people i considered my enemies.
So far so good...but since i awakende up so late (I have one friend who woke up 10 years ago - who i called and apoligized to yesterday) it can't be a coincidence, we are have the same awakening, and reasoning, and align perfectly in our belifs, and thats such a reliefe... but up until days ago i was prepping, until we got a channeled message on "telegram" from Ra, that we should stand down, this was not our fight.
Watching the video, with the channeled message for starseeds, i cried and cried, it was so beautiful.
1. Could i be one? And if so, how do i know how best to help?
2. And can i trust the Qanon, to be the infinite creators army?i
I Great you in the love light!
/Daniel
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