05-12-2009, 08:22 AM
Apparently I am what is referred to here as a dual density being, capable of existing in both 3rd density and 4th density consciousness during the same embodiment. Let me explain my story. Please forgive me if I am not familiar with all of the Law of One terminology yet, as I have only just begun to look at these teachings.
The Law of One material describes two things that a being must experience in order to move from 3rd to 4th density. Essentially it is a choice, but the second facet of that choice is that the chooser does not really understand what that choice entails. I saw some posts about whether or not you “qualify” for “harvest” if you understand the material of Law of One. If this is your mindset, rest assured that you do not understand Law of One. You will simply not be able to understand the significance of the choice until you are already well on you way to 4th density understanding, so you can’t somehow disqualify yourself.
In my case this played out as follows. I had been practicing meditation and studying yogic teachings. I felt an overwhelming sense that I had to wake up, like a bad dream that you are trying to fight your way out of. I prayed again and again that I be allowed to wake up and discover my true self. I repeatedly offered this lifetime to God to use as he needed in exchange for a chance to understand who I was. I thus fulfilled the first part of the equation, choosing STO.
I want to stress something here. I had no idea what I was getting into. I thought I understood that I was going to become some sort of modern day saint or something. Looking back from a 4th density mindset I realize that everything I thought that meant was completely incorrect, not in the external circumstances that I would face, but in the internal workings of my self and the way I would experience things. I could not have possibly known what the choice really entailed. Thus I fulfilled the second part of the equation, not really knowing what I was getting into. But as I’ve said, you can’t not fulfill this part, so it’s really a non issue.
There was a definite moment of choice. The first time it happened I had just finished praying and once again offering this life to God in exchange for understanding myself. I felt as if I was being asked, “How far will you take this?” In a moment I saw my self giving up everything, my job, my family. I envisioned the worst case possibility that I would end up homeless, ridiculed as a religious lunatic, and completely alone. Would I risk it? The first time it happened I turned away in shame.
After about a month to re-collect myself and strengthen my beliefs, I mustered up the courage to once again offer this life to God. Again I was faced with the terrifying realization that I must be willing to give up everything. This time was different. When asked “How far will you take this?” I had no idea what I might face or eventually become. The best answer I could muster was a very terrified, “As far as I can.”
For about ten minutes after that my body was wracked with energy. I was utterly terrified, realizing what I had done. I was a stupid little human playing games I didn’t understand with God. And here was God actually responding. I wavered between begging for it to stop, and trying to face it bravely. Eventually it subsided.
For about six months after that I went through what could be described as a series of trials, meant to test my commitment to God, and also tear away all traces of the old human that I was. These are the things than any human would have to face on their way to a higher density. I was able to make it in a matter of months, because I have probably done it before.
Now I feel much more like myself. I almost completely understand the workings of 3rd density consciousness and operate within it at times. There is also a completely different mode of operation, akin to your 4th density, with which I am becoming much more comfortable.
I could try to describe the differences between densities, but it would be pointless. You would either already understand, or have no hope of understanding. There are some other things I would like to add, but I’ll save them for another post as this one has grown quite long.
Brian
The Law of One material describes two things that a being must experience in order to move from 3rd to 4th density. Essentially it is a choice, but the second facet of that choice is that the chooser does not really understand what that choice entails. I saw some posts about whether or not you “qualify” for “harvest” if you understand the material of Law of One. If this is your mindset, rest assured that you do not understand Law of One. You will simply not be able to understand the significance of the choice until you are already well on you way to 4th density understanding, so you can’t somehow disqualify yourself.
In my case this played out as follows. I had been practicing meditation and studying yogic teachings. I felt an overwhelming sense that I had to wake up, like a bad dream that you are trying to fight your way out of. I prayed again and again that I be allowed to wake up and discover my true self. I repeatedly offered this lifetime to God to use as he needed in exchange for a chance to understand who I was. I thus fulfilled the first part of the equation, choosing STO.
I want to stress something here. I had no idea what I was getting into. I thought I understood that I was going to become some sort of modern day saint or something. Looking back from a 4th density mindset I realize that everything I thought that meant was completely incorrect, not in the external circumstances that I would face, but in the internal workings of my self and the way I would experience things. I could not have possibly known what the choice really entailed. Thus I fulfilled the second part of the equation, not really knowing what I was getting into. But as I’ve said, you can’t not fulfill this part, so it’s really a non issue.
There was a definite moment of choice. The first time it happened I had just finished praying and once again offering this life to God in exchange for understanding myself. I felt as if I was being asked, “How far will you take this?” In a moment I saw my self giving up everything, my job, my family. I envisioned the worst case possibility that I would end up homeless, ridiculed as a religious lunatic, and completely alone. Would I risk it? The first time it happened I turned away in shame.
After about a month to re-collect myself and strengthen my beliefs, I mustered up the courage to once again offer this life to God. Again I was faced with the terrifying realization that I must be willing to give up everything. This time was different. When asked “How far will you take this?” I had no idea what I might face or eventually become. The best answer I could muster was a very terrified, “As far as I can.”
For about ten minutes after that my body was wracked with energy. I was utterly terrified, realizing what I had done. I was a stupid little human playing games I didn’t understand with God. And here was God actually responding. I wavered between begging for it to stop, and trying to face it bravely. Eventually it subsided.
For about six months after that I went through what could be described as a series of trials, meant to test my commitment to God, and also tear away all traces of the old human that I was. These are the things than any human would have to face on their way to a higher density. I was able to make it in a matter of months, because I have probably done it before.
Now I feel much more like myself. I almost completely understand the workings of 3rd density consciousness and operate within it at times. There is also a completely different mode of operation, akin to your 4th density, with which I am becoming much more comfortable.
I could try to describe the differences between densities, but it would be pointless. You would either already understand, or have no hope of understanding. There are some other things I would like to add, but I’ll save them for another post as this one has grown quite long.
Brian
![[+]](https://www.bring4th.org/forums/images/collapse_collapsed.png)