10-03-2012, 12:57 AM
Aloha to my brothers and sisters! Thank you for your presence. Reading the threads and "feeling" you around me brings great happiness and gratitude for your service and your compassion/wisdom. I respect and love here.
I did not come upon the Law of One until recently, and after reading many of the passages have found that it resonated with me greatly. What a wonderful confirmation/reminder.
As many of you shared, I have also felt that I was here for a purpose to be of service to others. This realization came about during the dark night of my soul that "began" about 10-11 years old. I was pretty depressed, in the clinical term, during this time, often contemplating termination of life as the pain of experiencing life on this density was just too much.
Yet it was during these times of feeling disconnected, unloved, and pained that that sweet voice whispered to me from my spirit. This process of listening opened my consciousness to the great mystery. First lesson allowed me to understand that I was not from "here." So I began to understand who I was and why I needed to suffer so much. The voice that answered was so clear - "know thy self."
Through study of tarot, astrology, metaphysics/spirituality, and psychology in my pre-teen/teen years, I learned that I was here to be of service to others. It was such an ecstatic moment where the light-bulbs when *ding*! - ON. Couple of months, maybe it was a year later, the headmistress of my school (a beautiful nun from Ireland) stopped a group of us girls in the hallway. She said, "remember girls, when you grow up don't work in banking or finance, do something that helps others." That was a great confirmation for me.
Tarot and astrology and deep contemplation (through creative writing and journaling... brilliant ideas/concepts pop up when I write) really helped to understand my self. Being of emotional hypersensitivity, I was often told I was weak ("crybaby"). When I believed that, I became weak. Yet that voice kept pushing me on to understand my hypersensitivity. Astrology helped to gain better perspective on why I was born sensitive. Well, turns out my gift in this life is in the realm of emotions (very intense moon and aspect to pluto).
From a constructive perspective, this hypersensitivity was called empathy with love. And empathy is so crucial to compassion. As the Law of One and Tao Te Ching both clearly state, compassion without wisdom really can be exhausting!
So as I grew up as a sensitive, creative young girl, I progressed to a develop my analytical side during high school and college. The balance of analytical/emotional was helpful. And then growing older, I realized that I just had a thing for being of service to those who were going through challenging times, so I decided to become a therapist. My clients and colleagues have been great teachers. I am so humbled to see many people coming into this world to learn their lessons. So much respect, so much courage!
It's really not about technique... healing is about the relationship. The more I heal my relationship with myself, the more I connect with others on that deep level. When I am able to do that, I see the client shift, and I'll shift along side. It's this mutual respect and love (with healthy boundaries and ethics) that I think is so healing. Healing really is about understanding, acceptance, and forgiveness - forgiveness of self and others (there is more to it, of course). The self-blame/other-blame & judgment really is what is painful about this density.
When I asked my inner "guidance" on what's important (for me) at this time. I got "absolution," which was a word that sounded familiar but that I did not understand it's meaning. Looked it up and it was about forgiveness.
This is a really great time for that. The "waves" are "up" and when I "ride the wave," it seems a bit easier to clear things up.
Anyway, I'll be lurking around and learning from you all. I appreciate this opportunity!
If anybody would like to know their astrology better I would love to help. I never ever charge because it's just not done. I'm a "nerd" who loves to do readings. lol. Please let me know how I may help.
I did not come upon the Law of One until recently, and after reading many of the passages have found that it resonated with me greatly. What a wonderful confirmation/reminder.
As many of you shared, I have also felt that I was here for a purpose to be of service to others. This realization came about during the dark night of my soul that "began" about 10-11 years old. I was pretty depressed, in the clinical term, during this time, often contemplating termination of life as the pain of experiencing life on this density was just too much.
Yet it was during these times of feeling disconnected, unloved, and pained that that sweet voice whispered to me from my spirit. This process of listening opened my consciousness to the great mystery. First lesson allowed me to understand that I was not from "here." So I began to understand who I was and why I needed to suffer so much. The voice that answered was so clear - "know thy self."
Through study of tarot, astrology, metaphysics/spirituality, and psychology in my pre-teen/teen years, I learned that I was here to be of service to others. It was such an ecstatic moment where the light-bulbs when *ding*! - ON. Couple of months, maybe it was a year later, the headmistress of my school (a beautiful nun from Ireland) stopped a group of us girls in the hallway. She said, "remember girls, when you grow up don't work in banking or finance, do something that helps others." That was a great confirmation for me.
Tarot and astrology and deep contemplation (through creative writing and journaling... brilliant ideas/concepts pop up when I write) really helped to understand my self. Being of emotional hypersensitivity, I was often told I was weak ("crybaby"). When I believed that, I became weak. Yet that voice kept pushing me on to understand my hypersensitivity. Astrology helped to gain better perspective on why I was born sensitive. Well, turns out my gift in this life is in the realm of emotions (very intense moon and aspect to pluto).
From a constructive perspective, this hypersensitivity was called empathy with love. And empathy is so crucial to compassion. As the Law of One and Tao Te Ching both clearly state, compassion without wisdom really can be exhausting!
So as I grew up as a sensitive, creative young girl, I progressed to a develop my analytical side during high school and college. The balance of analytical/emotional was helpful. And then growing older, I realized that I just had a thing for being of service to those who were going through challenging times, so I decided to become a therapist. My clients and colleagues have been great teachers. I am so humbled to see many people coming into this world to learn their lessons. So much respect, so much courage!
It's really not about technique... healing is about the relationship. The more I heal my relationship with myself, the more I connect with others on that deep level. When I am able to do that, I see the client shift, and I'll shift along side. It's this mutual respect and love (with healthy boundaries and ethics) that I think is so healing. Healing really is about understanding, acceptance, and forgiveness - forgiveness of self and others (there is more to it, of course). The self-blame/other-blame & judgment really is what is painful about this density.
When I asked my inner "guidance" on what's important (for me) at this time. I got "absolution," which was a word that sounded familiar but that I did not understand it's meaning. Looked it up and it was about forgiveness.
This is a really great time for that. The "waves" are "up" and when I "ride the wave," it seems a bit easier to clear things up.
Anyway, I'll be lurking around and learning from you all. I appreciate this opportunity!
If anybody would like to know their astrology better I would love to help. I never ever charge because it's just not done. I'm a "nerd" who loves to do readings. lol. Please let me know how I may help.
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