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That everything can be contradicted = Freedom? - ayadew - 03-06-2010
Hello friends.
This thread is a sort of follow-up from my "please help" thread. I've come to a more fuller understanding of what my mental plague was.
Whatever reason it was.. negative entities, entheogen induced energy body overload/explosion, pre-incarnate decision or just something that happened - it doesn't really matter.
Basically, I saw what I've concluded to be true freedom. The fundamental realization that everything can be contradicted, that nothing is static, that everything is exactly what you make it to be.
For a month I was mentally locked in fractal paradoxes. Infinity never ends y'know. It just goes on and on and it's impossible to understand. Paradoxes are impossible to understand.
For some reason or another I found myself unable to accept that some things are impossible to understand. I looped paradoxes in my head all day long, it almost drove me insane.
Today I am more stable. I find myself thinking: it's OK if I don't understand everything as long as there are good things in the world. And the good things are made possible through the bad things, the polarity. And they exist together in some paradoxical order which I can't understand, but that's the only way to make good things possible. Without polarity, paradoxes, you'd not have much freedom to chose.
Today I find myself thinking that it's just a total waste of time to think about paradoxes. I try to simply be in the moment instead, and not let this rational brain engulf all my attention in things it can't understand anyway.
Freedom is a strange thing. It can drive a man to madness. It can give him total power. But none of them are entirely true, for they contradict each other. Always. The divine mystery goes on.
The more I know about the world the less I understand. Ra said that it's absolutely necessary for an entity to realize that it does not understand in order to be harvestable. Well, that's one hindrance less I guess...
RE: That everything can be contradicted = Freedom? - Peregrinus - 03-06-2010
I am happy for you that you have come to this state of being brother. It is a pleasant experience to be sure. Be aware that now you are in a neutral state, you higher self will "present" you with an experience if you do not search for one on your own. The experience the higher self gives is usually less pleasurable than what the self will seek, so in the simplest words, go do something fun!
To paraphrase Q'uo, "The higher self seeks to ensure an ongoing stream of experience, and better to have a bad experience than no experience at all".
RE: That everything can be contradicted = Freedom? - ayadew - 03-06-2010
Yes indeed, this feels tremendously important, but oh so taxing. I need a long mental vacation now.. I hope my higher self can let me have this. I bet many of us would like to give the higher self a slap sometimes
