(12-10-2016, 03:25 PM)Kaaron Wrote: The negative feelings haven't let up. I can hardly speak to my partner without it ending in me wanting to die.
There are 9,000 people in my town. Over the last month, there have been alot of violent incidents.
The night after the first quake, a man beat his girlfriend to death and someone in town was airlifted to hospital after a machete attack in town.
Since then, there have been car crashes, assaults...there were two murders on the same day last week.

Why am I wasting my breath by sharing this tho...There are about 2 people here that show any kind of empathy or caring outside of being right about their opinion...
Maybe it's cos atleast there'll be a clue for someone to go on...or maybe it's cos I have no real friends so I want to feel like people care about me.
Probably the latter...I should stop that, cos this is obviously the wrong forum for reaching out...Facebook has more compassion.

(11-13-2016, 07:31 AM)Kaaron Wrote: Then I get out and my partner tells me she was writing the introduction to our album. When she stopped, she was thinking and feeling about how profound the words were and straight away...BOOM a 6.6 earthquake.

(11-01-2016, 10:49 PM)Kaaron Wrote: remember the all in every moment

(11-02-2016, 08:06 PM)Kaaron Wrote: Letting go and realizing that there's a plan we're all part of, is key. Just do your best to remember the creator in every moment and wish nothing for yourself. Wish for those inspirational thoughts that will heal us. Wish for the highest version of you to help you to find your distortions, so you can better hear the all.

(12-10-2016, 08:48 PM)hounsic Wrote: I very rarely respond but just wanted to let you know I always appreciate your perspective. Living on the Earth can be tough, if I was in your neck of the woods I would ask if you wanted to meet for a drink. (or smoke a doobie, I don't drink)
Much love brother

(12-10-2016, 08:58 PM)Billy Wrote: I'm sorry there haven't been that many replies to your posts Kaaron and that you feel like people don't care.  It seems that bring4th as a whole has been rather quiet as of late, a slow period if you will.  If bring4th ain't doing it for ya at the moment, then where you feel supported and loved is probably the best place to spend your energies and focus on.

I hope you are able to find some sort of relief from the persistent negative feelings and experiences you are describing.  As for whether the 'earthquake' was created as a way to open up some type of negative vortex, I can't say I know with any certainty.  Have you noticed similar feelings from friends and family Kaaron?  Whatever is going on in NZ, I like to think that there are positive forces at work as well trying to make things more peaceable.  Hang in there bud.       

(12-11-2016, 08:00 PM)Kaaron Wrote: I keep crying like a baby. I think this is another intense rebirth. It must be refining us cos I'm talking soul crying where I have to groan to fill the chasm in my chest...the vibration feels like it's scratching a long overdue itch.

(12-15-2016, 05:17 AM)OpalE Wrote:

(12-11-2016, 08:00 PM)Kaaron Wrote: I keep crying like a baby. I think this is another intense rebirth. It must be refining us cos I'm talking soul crying where I have to groan to fill the chasm in my chest...the vibration feels like it's scratching a long overdue itch.

This could be independent fantasy, but it's strong enough to mention:

Reading this i hear "Create the pain ...  harvest the pain"  repeating like a breath rhythm.  It's concepts, not words, and i choose "pain" over "misery" although they're both included.

Also, getting a strong impression that you are hypersensitive to the effects and that this hypersensitivity is double-edged.  If you let yourself, you'll be pulled more heavily into despair than anyone around you, which only serves whatever is happening.  

I think you can turn it to your advantage:  if you can stop the motion of your thoughts in meditation, i'm almost certain your hypersensitivity will allow you to "trace the stream to the source" and grant you a vision of "what is really happening."  Pay attention to the exact moment your thoughts kick into motion again though ... good chance that you can't trust whatever you see after that moment.

Good luck, and be well.

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(02-09-2017, 02:32 AM)OpalE Wrote: I feel things reading your response, but am unsure of how much (and how) to acknowledge 'aloud.'

I can 'smell' on you that you've been places that i haven't, and have learned things that i haven't ... but i also recognize the 'place' that many of your posts in this thread are written from as part of my own past.

I know your 'enemy,' but i don't know what i could write here that would help you.

I've settled on these:

1)  The 'enemy' you face is formless.  It has an essence, but that essence will take whatever shape your thoughts and beliefs will allow, in order to express said essence as accurately as possible within those given boundaries.  I don't think it cares how you choose to view and define it, only that you acknowledge and allow it to be part of your experiences.

2)  You are not alone.  The struggle may appear to be between forces of comparable power, and despair may often appear to be the only appropriate response, but the reality behind the reality is this:

The whole affair is slanted so far in your favor that it's beyond cosmic hilarity.

There are ... ?forces ... ?powers ... that oversee these things.  You may or may not get to meet them 'in person.'  They are ever-present, but -- at least in my version of your battle -- entirely undetectable.  They follow some code (which i could feel but could not read).  From what i could tell, they only show themselves if and when that code is being violated.

3)  If you haven't already, you should read tamaryn's post on your wanderer thread from 2/6/17 at a point in time when your thoughts are quiet.

A gift is being offered there, one which i consider 'priceless.'
Accepting it would serve you better than I dare to.

----


You remind me very much of someone i've loved.

When your struggle is over, i hope i am allowed to know which ending you found.

(i intended the post to end there, but 'the voices' are responding to that last sentence:
"when forced into a choice between only two paths ... look for the third option being hidden from view.")

be well.

(02-23-2017, 08:44 PM)Kaaron Wrote:

(02-09-2017, 02:32 AM)OpalE Wrote: You remind me very much of someone i've loved.

When your struggle is over, i hope i am allowed to know which ending you found.

(i intended the post to end there, but 'the voices' are responding to that last sentence:
"when forced into a choice between only two paths ... look for the third option being hidden from view.")

be well.

Literally only just saw this  now randomly looking for an old thread.
This is exactly what I needed to hear, thank you.
I get a definite feeling of being on the same page as you too.
It's like having someone explain my realizations to me in a new way.
I've found that if I ask my higher self to bathe me in white light and for angels to accompany the energy to the light to be transfigured into love/light, I get an instant feeling of relief from the despair. I'm asking for courage to look at all of my hidden darkness so that I can heal myself and love myself. Then I know I'll be able to love others properly.
I've been too much in my head but it's changing at an accelerating pace.
Meditation and remembering love in every moment is the only thing that helps at the moment.
Thank you for your reply.

(02-23-2017, 10:02 PM)flofrog Wrote: Kaaron,  i just stumbled on this thread and I had read several of your posts on other threads and always felt so close to what they said. I didn't know about you being with this earthquake : Many thoughts...  I live in an california, and the minute I feel one I do precisely what you do  which is bathing everyone in love and light and it definitely changes thing, and helps...   Those angels are pretty good !!  Many thoughts Kaaron for you and your family...

Quote:"Apparently the closest seismic survey finished six days ago. I'm not sure about the seismic blasting by the very large ship working off the east coast."

The world's largest seismic blasting ship, the Amazon Warrior, is currently in Hawke Bay, on the North Island's east coast, according to marine tracking data."

Quote:"However, Slooton said pilot whales move through Cook Straight from time to time and may have been disturbed by that seismic survey.

She said there were regular pilot whale strandings at Farewell Spit, at a rate of almost one per year.

"This is not a new phenomenon. The number of strandings may be increasing due to human impacts, including noise. But strandings at Farewell Spit are not a new thing."

A Greenpeace New Zealand spokeswoman said the NGO had explored the possibility seismic testing had caused the stranding but said it was "unlikely".

She said there was no seismic testing in the area of the stranding, with the last being performed about a week ago.

A report by National Geographic in 2014 said sound bursts, which can reach 250 decibels, can disturb and even harm marine life that rely on sound for communication, navigation, and foraging.

Dr Stuart Hunter of Massey University will perform a necropsy on some of the whales.

"We want to try and determine if there's an underlying reason why such a large number of whales stranded and died in such a short space of time," he said.

"It's not unusual for pilot whales to strand en masse but this stranding is unusual due to the sheer number of whales involved and in such a small amount of time."

He said the goal was to try and understand if there's an underlying reason for the stranding.

Necropsy involves examination of the internal organs of animals to look for signs of infectious disease and trauma.

Today's stranding left more than 300 pilot whales on the sand.

The Department of Conservation said it received a report a pod looked like it might beach at 8pm yesterday.

Department of Conservation ranger Kath Inwood said strandings occur at Farewell Spit most years, with a stranding season between November and March.

The stranding is the third largest recorded whale stranding in New Zealand since data started being collected in the 1800s.

One thousand whales were stranded on the Chatham Islands in 1918 and 450 in Auckland in 1985.

- NZ Herald

(02-25-2017, 12:39 AM)SMC Wrote: Hi Kaaron - I found this article a while back but was avoiding the toxicity of your anger and pain directed towards me on that other thread so was 'taking a break'.

(I saw your apology to me there and thank you for it. The energy of it is beautiful. You bless yourself as well as me.)

from Feb 10th:

http://www.nzherald.co.nz/nz/news/article.cfm?c_id=1&objectid=11798380

Quote:"Apparently the closest seismic survey finished six days ago. I'm not sure about the seismic blasting by the very large ship working off the east coast."

The world's largest seismic blasting ship, the Amazon Warrior, is currently in Hawke Bay, on the North Island's east coast, according to marine tracking data."

I got to this (above) link via this article
http://www.nzherald.co.nz/marine/news/article.cfm?c_id=61&objectid=11798056

as I was saddened by the pilot whale strandings and read the speculation about it possibly being related to seismic testing...

I don't know whether this is related to your original posting of what you experienced, but thought I'd post it here as it may have relevance.

to continue quoting from the first link:

Quote:"However, Slooton said pilot whales move through Cook Straight from time to time and may have been disturbed by that seismic survey.

She said there were regular pilot whale strandings at Farewell Spit, at a rate of almost one per year.

"This is not a new phenomenon. The number of strandings may be increasing due to human impacts, including noise. But strandings at Farewell Spit are not a new thing."

A Greenpeace New Zealand spokeswoman said the NGO had explored the possibility seismic testing had caused the stranding but said it was "unlikely".

She said there was no seismic testing in the area of the stranding, with the last being performed about a week ago.

A report by National Geographic in 2014 said sound bursts, which can reach 250 decibels, can disturb and even harm marine life that rely on sound for communication, navigation, and foraging.

Dr Stuart Hunter of Massey University will perform a necropsy on some of the whales.

"We want to try and determine if there's an underlying reason why such a large number of whales stranded and died in such a short space of time," he said.

"It's not unusual for pilot whales to strand en masse but this stranding is unusual due to the sheer number of whales involved and in such a small amount of time."

He said the goal was to try and understand if there's an underlying reason for the stranding.

Necropsy involves examination of the internal organs of animals to look for signs of infectious disease and trauma.

Today's stranding left more than 300 pilot whales on the sand.

The Department of Conservation said it received a report a pod looked like it might beach at 8pm yesterday.

Department of Conservation ranger Kath Inwood said strandings occur at Farewell Spit most years, with a stranding season between November and March.

The stranding is the third largest recorded whale stranding in New Zealand since data started being collected in the 1800s.

One thousand whales were stranded on the Chatham Islands in 1918 and 450 in Auckland in 1985.

- NZ Herald

I see you are feeling somewhat better and send you love and solidarity for ongoing peace and strength.

I find making sure I take good care of my body with good food, enough sleep, exercise and hugs helps me cope with this toxic world more easily. I offer that recreational drugs in moderation can be useful - but care needs to happen when their use becomes regular (and in the size of 'dose').... we're already very 'open' psychically, if we're those called to explore 'Spirit', so we need to take extra care (imo) with altering our brain chemistry.

(I say this to myself as much as to any other member here.)

The more we can Love and forgive ourselves the more our 'conditions' improve